Monday, August 16, 2010

Self Analysis

“I was born as a human…. I wanna die as a human…. “
Yesterday on 15th August I completed 6 months in my current job… And today I took a day off from work.. I need to analyze…. What I have learnt…. What has happened in these 6 months…. My decisions…. My experience…. Level of satisfaction….. After devoting six months at least I deserve to understand what all is happening…. What can be my future….. And How I can shape my coming life in a better way…

Our first job not necessary makes us realize what we really wanna do in future…. But it does make us realize what we don’t wanna do in coming time…..

In the morning I was not feeling very good…. I decided to stay back and give myself a day to rethink on what I am doing…. So here I am starting my day with something I really love to do….. BLOGGING!

Let me start with the analysis…. Similar to SWOT, I’ll do PNWW of my job….. i.e., Positive-Negative-Why should I continue-Why I shouldn’t… And I’ll try to analyze the positive aspects of my work….. Negative ones…. What I am learning today and what are the opportunities here for me in coming time…..

Positive-
- I am improving my driving skills since I drive for 5-6 hours daily
- I am developing patience by handling all sort of clients
- I am learning how to be a machine and give constant numbers daily… and faults are not acceptable :P
- I am learning how tough life can be even after trying so hard to make it good and comfortable by dedicating all your life studying and spending hard earned money of your parents….
- I have met altogether a different set of people who are well adjusted in such scenario from past 4-5 years….. May be the time when they joined the organization conditions were not that bad… And it’s really interesting to study them… I call them “A machine with a brain”….
- I have realized how badly I loved my internship and my subject ‘Anthropology’….
- I am learning the role of HR as well by analyzing what is required on their part and what they are doing… ( I have done a SWOT analysis n them as well )
- I am learning a lot in every sense by observing a very different side of humans….
- Although being very honest, here I have met few real good people whom I admire a lot…. In terms of their PR skills, perfection in communication, dedication, diplomacy, team management skills…. It’s truly worth appreciating.
- I wanna be an entrepreneur and these learnings are teaching me what not to do in my own business.

Negatives-
- Ummm…. Aaa…. Hmmm….. I guess every negative thing is also learning….. So that ways I can say…. It’s good for me as I am learning from it…. So more or less it’s again positive! No regrets honestly! :D


Why should I continue?
- To learn more about this different class of people
- To become a thick skinned human ( I can’t be a machine & thats for sure)
- To gain work experience (although there is no point in gaining something you can’t use)
- To earn money unless I get a job I really wanna do.(One reason of not switching my job is I don’t wanna go in another similar kinda job which will again give me dissatisfaction and frustration.)

Why I shouldn’t continue?
- No time for myself, family & friends
- No time for gym & blog, no weekends
- No personal satisfaction
- No personal growth
- No dignity… huh


Although whatever I earn I spend on my installments and my car :P…. So anyhow I am only able to pay my installments of education loan from my salary and nothing else… :P

I still remember the day when I gave my interview for the job… I was so excited….. So positive and full of enthusiasm and I was pretty sure I’ll do it for at least 2 years….. Learning is a gradual process….. And then I’ll start with my business….. And now how things have changed….. I really wish I could do something good for the company… I always treated it as my own.. but it never treated employees as its own…. Anyhow you can’t change the world….

I just want myself back….. As someone told me I should always smile….. As our smile is reason for many others to smile….. :D

And I believe one should never give up…. No matter how difficult the situation may be…… tough times reveal the real you….. And if things are not the way you want them to be…. It’s time to fight back!

I guess zyada ho gaya…. He he he…. But I am feeling happy…… :D

Love you God….. I know you are there for me! Mwuaah :)))

30 comments:

Priyanka Kalra said...

hmm... nice deepika.... life is to live evn if u r living in hell... bt it depends on us to mk hell heaven:P ...u r vry much trying to do so.
keep it up:P
tc njyy

Deepika said...

Thanks dear :))

Mr. "Niraj" Lemon said...

This same situation exist in my life as well...so i can say how u feel...but all i can say is though u r busy the whole take at least 5 mins to do Wat u like to do...it may be anything ....and gradually increase the time...c u will find the real new world....

Creativity!! said...

Hi Dear,

Glad To See Your Post After A Very Long Time. You Have Very Well Described About Problems Flowing In Professional Life.

Wish You All The Very Best Success :) :) Take Care.

Saif said...

nice ... it always helps to do some self-analysis from time to time ...

btw, i think i know who said that line about "smile" to u :D

... and you mentioned something about personal satisfaction ... well, if interested then read this :D :D ... only if u want to :)
http://lifepsychologyandalotmore.blogspot.com/2010/06/self-satisfaction-ultimate-goal-of-life.html

Prasanth said...

Bringing out a positive aspect from so much negativity shows ur strong charecter...
U rock deeps...
And with this attitude, u r gonna get successful...
All d best... :-)

Sat_hi_sh said...

Getting to know the ethics of office work is quite disturbing ,agree with ur point on how they dont treat us as their own people :(

Its a business world & we are just bought for money :(

anyways hope u find ur smile back again :)

keep blogging
cheers !!!

Deepika said...

@Niraj
hmm.. I'll certainly try to do so :) thanks fr dropping by :)

Deepika said...

@Creativity
Thanks dear... How r u doing??

Deepika said...

@Saif
Read your post.... felt like i read a book from an established and world famous writer ;)

he he he.... u remember that.... nice :))

Deepika said...

@Prasanth
Thanks Prasanth.... :)

You know what, whenever i feel negative i think about you... it helps me to feel positive again.... Seriously!!

Thanks for being there.. :)

Deepika said...

@Sathish
So true.... It feels like we are only money making machines for them.. :(

Prasanth said...

:)

Saif said...

Oh! thats a really big compliment Deepika ... thanks a lot ...

... and yes I do remember that ;) :D

take care!

Ganesh_Dalal said...

Wow, seems like the story of each one of us..

Ganesh_Dalal said...

hey Deepika, read many of your blogs, they make an interesting read.. keep writing..

Randeep said...

Me too going trough the same phase. I'm enjoying it. :)

Cheers
Randeep

Deepika said...

@Saif

:) you deserve it!

Deepika said...

@Ganesh

Thanks for dropping by.... :)) I am glad to know that you liked it...

Deepika said...

@Randeep

Good that you are enjoying... :)

I have started enjoying as well... but i dont wanna get used to it :)

Anonymous said...

is this the same deepika that i taught?did u realy create this blog??god this is great...gud to c u do this...sachin srivastava

Natesa said...

wow !!! u have expressed so well what millions go thru & feel after the initial euphoria of "getting a job" wanes off.... 6 months in ur first job is a "long" time, given that many disillusioned youngsters leave their first job within weeks. Good, u have learnt a lot ( & will learn a lot more)

Anyway, now that u have done a SWOT, its time u started looking up other job options as well. There r many sites available on the net which might help u in realizing what ur dream career really is. I can tell from personal experience that these sites really help. But then, ya, the road 2 ur dream career is not really an easy one, but u got to ride on if u wanna reach there.
Best of luck :-) !!

suren said...

My goodness!... fortunately i found ur blog. It is really good n awesome n inspirational. Especially "SELF ANALYSIS"...i have been depressing for 10 months..bcz of my stupid things but even i knew that am doing wrong but i am not able to come out from that Any way hope ur blog will lead me into a better way.

suren said...

My goodness!... fortunately i found ur blog. It is really good n awesome n inspirational. Especially "SELF ANALYSIS"...i have been depressing for 10 months..bcz of my stupid things but even i knew that am doing wrong but i am not able to come out from that Any way hope ur blog will lead me into a better way.

suren said...

My goodness!... fortunately i found ur blog. It is really good n awesome n inspirational. Especially "SELF ANALYSIS"...i have been depressing for 10 months..bcz of my stupid things but even i knew that am doing wrong but i am not able to come out from that Any way hope ur blog will lead me into a better way.

Deepika said...

@Suren

Thanks for dropping by.. Your comment was very motivating.. Thanks..

God bless!

Andy said...

Hi Deepika,
good to see people like u who manage time to be so bracing,real and motivational.....
how to u manage ur time.

SOCH... said...

@deepika

I read this and think, how to be positive even in the darkest hours...

Nikon Girl said...

I want to be the same Deepika again!

Nikon Girl said...

Life Sucks! :'(

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