Friday, November 23, 2012

Craving!



There are certain times when it’s difficult to figure out what we are feeling….  Something similar is happening with me…. I dunno what I am feeling… Whether I am sad or happy… 

I can sense some kinda craving…. Might be coffee… but I doubt its coffee… After having 4 strong espressos I rarely feel any more starvation for coffee… It might be the effect of access of caffeine may be…. 

Weird it is to understand… Its giving me a kinda head ache…. Some sort of discomfort in thinking process, I might be a craving for a break… Let’s see… Or stress of work giving me this restlessness…. I really dunno… I feel like destructing everything within and outside...

All I can sense is this is the feeling which a bird must be having while being locked in a cage… running around here and there… trying hard to get the freedom… I m not feeling comfortable… It’s a true restlessness feel… When I dunno from what I am trying to run and to reach where or to achieve what…

What I know is I am craving to get free from this feel…. I am not enjoying it…. Feel like running away to a far off place away from everything and never wanna come back… My soul wanna shout very badly… Something is not good…. Something is not right…

God, I need you… Please help me! :-(