Friday, November 23, 2012

Craving!



There are certain times when it’s difficult to figure out what we are feeling….  Something similar is happening with me…. I dunno what I am feeling… Whether I am sad or happy… 

I can sense some kinda craving…. Might be coffee… but I doubt its coffee… After having 4 strong espressos I rarely feel any more starvation for coffee… It might be the effect of access of caffeine may be…. 

Weird it is to understand… Its giving me a kinda head ache…. Some sort of discomfort in thinking process, I might be a craving for a break… Let’s see… Or stress of work giving me this restlessness…. I really dunno… I feel like destructing everything within and outside...

All I can sense is this is the feeling which a bird must be having while being locked in a cage… running around here and there… trying hard to get the freedom… I m not feeling comfortable… It’s a true restlessness feel… When I dunno from what I am trying to run and to reach where or to achieve what…

What I know is I am craving to get free from this feel…. I am not enjoying it…. Feel like running away to a far off place away from everything and never wanna come back… My soul wanna shout very badly… Something is not good…. Something is not right…

God, I need you… Please help me! :-(

12 comments:

SOCH... said...

Sometimes there comes a point when you see that life has become mechanical... We are busy in the daily routines that we forget that we actually are humans not machines... I guess that is when our inner self tells us to stop nd relax... we may b unhappy from inside...

You have always looked at life in positive angle... and i know you will be back from this... nd how can God let his favourate kid to be Sad.. God ji, now its ur fault if she is sad...

Get back sweetheart...

A_Shadow_Towards_Light said...

I think its ONLY you who can help yourself! God has given us all we need to cope with whatever we are going or about to go through...We just need to "align" ourself in its way...You know na "Life is like a Game of Tetris" :)
But if you still think that your work and this world has stretched your self to a now-unbearable limit...break free (though only for a while) and LOSE YOURSELF... yeah not like boozing, bottom-up type. :) NO! Rather you can just feed some lonely beggar on Barakhamba road in a three star hotel...if not five star! Or you can donate your most precious belonging (that "the self" of yours always wanted but never needed..) to some lady under south-X subway...and dont forget to get something for a (probably wounded) kid of hers!
This way you can let your self actually OUT!! Then you would be for this world...and this world would be yours!
This may sound crazy but this really works...when I was a grad student..just for the sake of it, I gave a Rs100 note to a hopeless beggar (being a student that amount was actually valuable for me at the time)...and WOW! the look on his face was unforgettable...He might have been a drunkard or something but I just had made a coolest deal with that man..I bought the (invaluable) peace of my mind (with a funny memory freeeee!), in just 100 rupees...fair enough I guess! :-D

Rahul Tewari said...

ki tadap tere door jaane se kum na hogi...
ki mushkilein door jaane se kum na hongi...
hai waqt ka takaza ki apni jagah mazbut raho...
hil gaye toh sazaaaa yeh kum na hogi...
stick to what u do..enjoy as u dont wanna loose..care for urself as all are busy...when they get time...they will do...;)

Kn said...

Hmm... It happens. Sometimes v r unable to logically put into words y v r feeling d way v do... Sometimes v have everything v ever wanted, sometimes v achieve our most cherished dreams, but still... v feel as if something is missing... v feel incomplete, unhappy, but r unable 2 pinpoint d cause... Ya, but I know d kind of person u r Deepika, u will bounce out of dis mood soon, take care :-) !!

& btw, I really miss u Deepika, u wer 1 of d most wonderful people I have ever met, I cut contacts frm u over such a small issue, m so sorry... Pls msg/mail me if u willing 2 give another chance 2 our friendship... M really sorry :'-(

Deepika said...

@Prasanth

Thank you for always being thr.. :)

Deepika said...

@A shadow

Good to know that there is somebody who thinks "Life is like a game of tetris"

Your point is indeed valid.. Happiness lies in things which gives us internal satisfaction!

Deepika said...

@Rahul

Hmm... Good one!

Thanks for dropping by and showing concern :)

Deepika said...

@Natesha

Do you really think I can be angry with you?

I am still here as I was always... Friends do fight but that's a part of friendship not an end of it!

I miss you too dear :(

A_Shadow_Towards_Light said...

You got the point...well I guess not! :)
Anyway I hope you are fine now...enjoying and appreciating the whole burger of life rather than just the happiness.. sandwiched between pain and sadness!

Rahul Tewari said...

awww...concern seeks concern too...u dont know me yet...and i want to..:D

mylife17 said...

See Deepika, It Happens with everyone at any point of time in One's Life......Better Be calm, Don't get tensed...Try to concentrate yourself while doing meditation...Things will get better soon, really Don think too much ,Accept the life as it is...:) Try to go to the place which is close to nature, You will feel Relax and Calm...and All your Problem will get settled down by itself........Believe it :):)

Maya said...

Hi Deepika

Lots and lots of advice by everyone. I hope you would have already come out of this phase.

regards

Maya

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