Monday, April 28, 2014

Discovering Myself!


I never thought a short weekend trip can give me so much to think about.. So much peace and calmness inside...

It was an unexpected trip... A trip to Rishikesh..

I dunno.. what connection I have with water.. It washes away my pain & impurities and I feel I m born again... whether its rain from the dense clouds or a deep cold river of Ganges... :-)

As I said, it was unexpected, my friend called up in the afternoon around 3, 

She- Are we going?
Me- Yes
She- Pakka na, cancel mat kariyo, I'll see you at bus stop.. 
Me- haan haan.. dont worry I'll be there...

We took a random bus to reach Rishikesh... which was booked online at the last moment along with the resort...

We boarded in that dirty bus around 9pm, and for first time I realized how badly I missed travelling in train, which I always used to hate... 

Journey began, I was up all night... staring at the darkness outside the window... Night was long... we reached there with the sunrise.. and started moving towards our resort... it was small, beautiful and very serene... The view from the terrace was mind blowing.. Pure delight for my eyes...

It was like.. I reached in an another world in just one night.. the feel was so amazing.. the cold breeze... that poetic beautiful river flowing through mountains... It had an impact on me.. as if something is going inside my skin and touching my soul... healing it slowly... I was lost in the beauty of nature... I missed my camera very badly... 

The moment we entered inside our room, it started raining... Wow sight it was... Sea.. mountains... and rain.. I couldn't have asked for more.. We quickly got ready.. ate light breakfast and moved towards our small truck kinda vehicle which was waiting for us... we carried our boat on the truck and started towards river for rafting in the drizzling rain and awesome breeze...

We started rafting around 10am.. the pleasure which water gives me is impossible to compose in words... Sometimes I feel.. I was meant to be a water animal but by mistake born on land :P... 

The touch of nature's water touches my soul deep inside... Something, I cant get anywhere else... Its gives me a pleasure no one can think of...

In the mid river, I asked the coach-

Me- Will I sink, If i'll jump in water?
Coach- No, you are wearing a life jacket!
Me- Sure?
Coach- Yeah, still we are here for your safety.

SPLASH! And I was in water! 

Gosh!! It was an immense pleasure...Like I was in heaven.. I cant describe it... Water is a healer... It was like.. it changed something in me... It washed off my wounds & scars... I was just floating in water like a dead fish... And it was a real life... Real feel that I was alive!

I can still sense that feel, while writing it here... its giving me goosebumps.. 

3 hours in water were like 3 seconds... I never realized and we covered 16kms... 

Unwillingly, I came out of our boat.... and was trying to understand what just happened inside me...

I moved towards resort... lost in myself... reached room.. took bath.. had lunch and we went out to book our bus for Delhi... Got tickets...

We came back and sat on terrace for dunno how long... just enjoying the view and feeling the breeze... 

Came back in room and I don't really remember when I felt asleep... That sleep was different.. So so deep... So relaxing.. I dunno how long or short that night was.. I got up @7am with my alarm... And we got ready for our bus... We took bus @10am... and by evening we were home... 

It was an experience of a lifetime... people say they go for rafting and enjoy... I don't know whether they all go through all what I have experienced... It touched me deep within and had changed some part of me... Life is truly miraculous... amazingly BEAUTIFUL.. And water is MAGICAL...!

God :-)))) Love you for creating water and... of course! my people! :-)

Life is always Amazing!

:-)

Yes, its a masterpiece of nature.... Its amazing everyday...!

We often crib and complain about bad happenings in our lives... but what is the fun if there are no ups & downs.. How can a person enjoy a sight of a beautiful blue sea without experiencing the sadness of a dead desert... Desert reminds me of dessert and I am hungry :P

Anyhow.. You never know where you find what... We can find life in a dead shell.... Life is full of surprises.. you can never predict what future holds for you :-)

Recent example from my life is my new workplace.. I always met people who said banks are the worst places to work... And i always had this phobia of working in a bank.. In fact, I never used to go for an interview if company used to be a bank, no matter how good... This new bank I joined was also not my first choice.. i joined it without much of enthusiasm.. I had my own reasons.. For me it was like an arranged marriage where I had to marry without knowing anything about a guy just because I was getting old sitting at home :P... and the only reason of this negative image was the opinion i used to carry from people...

But trust me.. this place amazed me... Each day is new here.. with something new... I am actually falling in love with it... Now, I believe I somewhat understand how people fall in love even after arranged marriage :-)... You explore... you learn.. you accept the person as they are.. you appreciate... You start loving small things... that's how you begin...

My first day in the company was somewhat disastrous... It rained very heavily.. And i was all soaked in cold water when i entered in the office... Shivering.. And praying to get free on time so that i can leave as I was feeling cold... Then I got to know that my boss forgot about my joining date and he was on leave :P... day moved forward with mixed happenings... I dint like it much... 

Next 2 days were somewhat boring... Then I met 'A', my colleague... A funny, happy-go-lucky kinda guy.. on first day of our meeting we dint talk much.. but we developed comfort in 2-3 days of interaction... I developed interest in the profile and product plus 'A' was there to make me laugh.. Life becomes easier when someone is there... 

In a week's time boss nominated me & 'A' for a short product training... which was in some village.. We got late on the first day of training.. Though some disasters do happened there as people there carried a very different mindset... We still managed to enjoy our training along with the learning...

Coming back to office... Another '6-day' training was lined up... And we were waiting for it eagerly... days passed and training began... We met many new people there... since, this training was residential... we got ample time to interact with people... 

This training was too good... I used to play badminton with people and discovered I can still play well... We all used to sit and talk till late evenings about banking, financial products and live case studies... Since, all were from banking background except me.... I got to learn a lot from them.. It was superb..

People in banks are very different... They are to-the-point, precise, very clear, serious, focused, clear and respectful... They wont make you feel like they are hitting on you because you are a female colleague or talking double meaning stuff.. they are straight forward and decent. I really love being in their company... there is a sense of protection always... Like they understand that they also have sister and mother at home :-)

6-day training got over, I made few friends and moved towards my home... When I joined office after training I was different... I loved being there... I had less concerns about how dirty and small the office room is... or there are no chairs to sit... All what mattered was I was in a place where people were realistic.. Involved in themselves, least bothered about what you are up-to... Its a fast life here... No one has time to bother about where you are going or what you are wearing.. 

Say Hi, Smile and begin... That's how it is!

I somewhat appreciate my boss a lot, he is a guy rare to find... too aggressive, polished, prompt and cool... Involved in his life and our numbers.... No monkey business... no calling every minute to ask where are you or what you are up to.. 

Though right now my attendance system is not started yet, so, m still cherishing my honeymoon period... I daily go to office with equal enthusiasm and look forward to do things I wish to do... I have so much to catch up with... Running, Swimming, Dancing, Shopping, Investment, Buying phone, Preparations for GOA, Savings for Bora Bora... Phewww.... Long long list I have to pursue :-)

While doing all this... I miss someone badly... But at times in life we need to leave certain people for their happiness... So, if your absence is gift for someone... Give them and carry on... 

Life is full of surprises... All we need is to take a step ahead and start walking... Till the time we'll go out... we never know how it could turn out to be... 

God ji, thank you so much for everything... Your li'l favorite kid loves you lot... take care of my people... Love you... Muuuuaaaah :-)))