Deception!

"One of the worst feelings in the world is the feeling of being cheated by someone you trusted.."

As we grow up we meet different kinda people... We see different faces... We learn from them... 
Some people actually come close to us and on the other hand some just pretend to be so...

The worst feeling ever is to realize that someone you considered very close to you deceived you very badly...

I m going through a similar feeling right now...

A feeling where I realized I was being a fool from past few months... I really dunno what pleasure people get in doing such things... Winning and breaking faith like a toy of glass...

In past also such things happened though they were not this bad but then I coped up with them may be because that was the time when I was close to my friends and we used to meet on daily basis... And they helped me to come out of it... 

But, someone truly said- "Sometimes the wrong persons teach us the right lessons in life"

Today as well, I have certain very good friends but they are not around me... So today when I find myself struck in this situation I truly understand how difficult and deadly life can ever be...

Trust me God, I m seriously very upset with you on this and I need time to come out of it... But, then, I am thankful to you for teaching me this...! Your li'l favorite kid Loves you :)) Muaah

Recover. Gain Strength. Rejuvenate. BOUNCE BACK!

I am trying to understand what is going on in my mind from past few weeks…. I am in a state of a strange dilemma… kinda suffering… trying super hard to come out of it!

I am being anti-social, destructive, restless, careless, unreasonable, emotionally unavailable, ignorant, cruel, rude and crazy!

It’s a part of me and I don’t mind being so…. But then… the changes in me are scaring me… It’s affecting my work out routine… my professional performance… personal life… and every damn thing!

Whenever, I find myself moving towards darkness and negativity I recall Spiderman III… Where I find negative powers all over me… Ruling my Heart & Mind!

As they say… Life is all about changes and phases…. This is also a phase.. The world is my playground… I am a player who is not in the best form at present but yes, I’ll certainly be fine….

Many good things did happen in last few days… I got my new car… And I am loving it… Though I still love my old one the most…. May be I am fond of the ‘first love thing’…. First job… first car… first home…. First…. Are always very close to my heart and soul…

I guess all I need is… a rejuvenating weekend outing... starting with a long long drive… without phone and net… all alone…. Isolation therapy is good at times…. I need to be alone…. Just me... my coffee… my camera… my running…. Myself!

I need to be with me… I feel I am running from myself… I don’t give a damn to people who don’t matter to me… but I am really concerned about certain people…. I think that’s what is bothering me like hell..

I wanna indulge in all good things where I can recharge myself back.... bring me back on track… I wanna listen to myself… Wanna spend time with my inner self… Together we’ll have good time… long walks, music, coffee, dark chocolates, photography… blogging, running.. And much more….

Dear God, please give me strength and guide me in the right direction…. I need you to be with me…. Your girl is missing you... Love you...

My 2012: An Overview!

Summary of 2012- 

Turned 25... changed a few things, became more social, loved my workout routine, Enjoyed my work life, had a nice personal life.... Learnt new things.. Gained some assets... ... And my state of mind was pleasant...
In Short, a great year.... Loved it.

The Questionnaire-

1. Best Moment of the year- Many good things happened but the best was "Resigning from my previous job on 3rd Jan 2012"

2. Best Finding of the year- Miracles do happen!

3. Best Asset of the year- My Nikon D5100

4. Best Learning of the year- People you trust blindly can hurt you badly.

5. Best Decision taken in 2012- Joining my new company!

6. Top 5 movies of the year-
- Ishaqzaade
- Ferrari Ki Sawari
- Cocktail
- Vicky Donor
- OMG!

7. Top 5 songs of the year-
- Paani Da Rang from Vicky Donor
- Ye Kasoor from Jism 2
- Main Sharabi from Cocktail
- Heer from JTHJ
- Sang hun tere from Jannat 2

8. Saddest Moment of the year- Too personal to share!

9. One bad thing happened in 2012- Something terribly bad did happen, but as they say... without certain troubles there can't be a Disney movie.. And I am Disney princess! hehehe ;-)

10. Something you loved and lost in 2012- Can't recall, I guess nothing!

11. Your long awaited desire fulfilled in 2012- Yesss!!

12. Your Best Click of the year- For a photographer every click is special... but yes My favorite is added below-

13. Your Best new place visited in 2012- Bhangarh & Lansdowne! It'll be an injustice to mention just one.

14. A new and interesting food joint discovered in the year- Many Actually but I liked 'Panda Wok'

15. Best Dream you saw in 2012 (While sleeping)- Saw many... Can't recall one.

16. One new love/interest developed in the year- Shhh...

17. Best Family Moment of the year- Our Family Evening celebration on 12/12/12

18. Best office moment of the year- Well... Jaipur Event I guess!

19. One change in you from 2012- My Age

20. Any new habit adopted in 2012- Smoking, drinking and drug addiction- none of them...! Just increased my coffee intake..

21. A wish pending for 2013- Ah.. Mannnyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy...................

Anybody reading this post is free to copy and fill the questionnaire to post it on their blog… Cheers!