Happy Birthday Pearl :-)

The most difficult thing is when you don’t have feelings to express!

I started Pearl to write whatever I feel, but now, I don’t feel anything... just nothing. I am blank mostly in my head. And heart, what’s heart? Oh yes, the blood pumping organ. Yeah, I have that :P

Weird I know but true.

I have changed or something died in me or may be everything is all right, I just over think.

Happy 6^th Birthday Pearl. I am sorry for being so irresponsible towards you.

But, I still love you. And love is not a feeling. Muuaah.

Life is always Amazing!

:-)

Yes, its a masterpiece of nature.... Its amazing everyday...!

We often crib and complain about bad happenings in our lives... but what is the fun if there are no ups & downs.. How can a person enjoy a sight of a beautiful blue sea without experiencing the sadness of a dead desert... Desert reminds me of dessert and I am hungry :P

Anyhow.. You never know where you find what... We can find life in a dead shell.... Life is full of surprises.. you can never predict what future holds for you :-)

Recent example from my life is my new workplace.. I always met people who said banks are the worst places to work... And i always had this phobia of working in a bank.. In fact, I never used to go for an interview if company used to be a bank, no matter how good... This new bank I joined was also not my first choice.. i joined it without much of enthusiasm.. I had my own reasons.. For me it was like an arranged marriage where I had to marry without knowing anything about a guy just because I was getting old sitting at home :P... and the only reason of this negative image was the opinion i used to carry from people...

But trust me.. this place amazed me... Each day is new here.. with something new... I am actually falling in love with it... Now, I believe I somewhat understand how people fall in love even after arranged marriage :-)... You explore... you learn.. you accept the person as they are.. you appreciate... You start loving small things... that's how you begin...

My first day in the company was somewhat disastrous... It rained very heavily.. And i was all soaked in cold water when i entered in the office... Shivering.. And praying to get free on time so that i can leave as I was feeling cold... Then I got to know that my boss forgot about my joining date and he was on leave :P... day moved forward with mixed happenings... I dint like it much... 

Next 2 days were somewhat boring... Then I met 'A', my colleague... A funny, happy-go-lucky kinda guy.. on first day of our meeting we dint talk much.. but we developed comfort in 2-3 days of interaction... I developed interest in the profile and product plus 'A' was there to make me laugh.. Life becomes easier when someone is there... 

In a week's time boss nominated me & 'A' for a short product training... which was in some village.. We got late on the first day of training.. Though some disasters do happened there as people there carried a very different mindset... We still managed to enjoy our training along with the learning...

Coming back to office... Another '6-day' training was lined up... And we were waiting for it eagerly... days passed and training began... We met many new people there... since, this training was residential... we got ample time to interact with people... 

This training was too good... I used to play badminton with people and discovered I can still play well... We all used to sit and talk till late evenings about banking, financial products and live case studies... Since, all were from banking background except me.... I got to learn a lot from them.. It was superb..

People in banks are very different... They are to-the-point, precise, very clear, serious, focused, clear and respectful... They wont make you feel like they are hitting on you because you are a female colleague or talking double meaning stuff.. they are straight forward and decent. I really love being in their company... there is a sense of protection always... Like they understand that they also have sister and mother at home :-)

6-day training got over, I made few friends and moved towards my home... When I joined office after training I was different... I loved being there... I had less concerns about how dirty and small the office room is... or there are no chairs to sit... All what mattered was I was in a place where people were realistic.. Involved in themselves, least bothered about what you are up-to... Its a fast life here... No one has time to bother about where you are going or what you are wearing.. 

Say Hi, Smile and begin... That's how it is!

I somewhat appreciate my boss a lot, he is a guy rare to find... too aggressive, polished, prompt and cool... Involved in his life and our numbers.... No monkey business... no calling every minute to ask where are you or what you are up to.. 

Though right now my attendance system is not started yet, so, m still cherishing my honeymoon period... I daily go to office with equal enthusiasm and look forward to do things I wish to do... I have so much to catch up with... Running, Swimming, Dancing, Shopping, Investment, Buying phone, Preparations for GOA, Savings for Bora Bora... Phewww.... Long long list I have to pursue :-)

While doing all this... I miss someone badly... But at times in life we need to leave certain people for their happiness... So, if your absence is gift for someone... Give them and carry on... 

Life is full of surprises... All we need is to take a step ahead and start walking... Till the time we'll go out... we never know how it could turn out to be... 

God ji, thank you so much for everything... Your li'l favorite kid loves you lot... take care of my people... Love you... Muuuuaaaah :-)))

Recover. Gain Strength. Rejuvenate. BOUNCE BACK!

I am trying to understand what is going on in my mind from past few weeks…. I am in a state of a strange dilemma… kinda suffering… trying super hard to come out of it!

I am being anti-social, destructive, restless, careless, unreasonable, emotionally unavailable, ignorant, cruel, rude and crazy!

It’s a part of me and I don’t mind being so…. But then… the changes in me are scaring me… It’s affecting my work out routine… my professional performance… personal life… and every damn thing!

Whenever, I find myself moving towards darkness and negativity I recall Spiderman III… Where I find negative powers all over me… Ruling my Heart & Mind!

As they say… Life is all about changes and phases…. This is also a phase.. The world is my playground… I am a player who is not in the best form at present but yes, I’ll certainly be fine….

Many good things did happen in last few days… I got my new car… And I am loving it… Though I still love my old one the most…. May be I am fond of the ‘first love thing’…. First job… first car… first home…. First…. Are always very close to my heart and soul…

I guess all I need is… a rejuvenating weekend outing... starting with a long long drive… without phone and net… all alone…. Isolation therapy is good at times…. I need to be alone…. Just me... my coffee… my camera… my running…. Myself!

I need to be with me… I feel I am running from myself… I don’t give a damn to people who don’t matter to me… but I am really concerned about certain people…. I think that’s what is bothering me like hell..

I wanna indulge in all good things where I can recharge myself back.... bring me back on track… I wanna listen to myself… Wanna spend time with my inner self… Together we’ll have good time… long walks, music, coffee, dark chocolates, photography… blogging, running.. And much more….

Dear God, please give me strength and guide me in the right direction…. I need you to be with me…. Your girl is missing you... Love you...

Happy 4th Birthday! (BELATED) :-)

Sorry Pearl, for being late this year as well.... But Wishing you a very happy belated Birthday... Love you Laods.... 

P.S.- Pearl's Birthday was on 30th November, and this year it completed 4 years... :-)

F.R.I.E.N.D.S Forever!

Today while driving to my office, I realized that I never ever dedicated any post to the people who deserve a special space in my life… It’s not very tough to count them though… 

Broadly I can say, it’s my friends & my family members…. 

Of course, there are other influential people as well… like my First bosses (Internship and first job) who played very important role and still deserve a very good space in my mindset and life… Who helped me to grow like a lost kid in the fish-market…. My Marketing Professor Late Mr S.K. Jaimini who helped me in taking very crucial decisions at the point where I was super confused… 

But, I specifically wanna dedicate this post to my Friends…..

In the morning while driving, I was thinking… I must have done really good deeds in past life to have people like the ones I have… Honestly, I am one of the toughest and most complicated people…. Very short tempered, bad, rude, moody and crazy… It takes hell lot of patience and concern to deal with me…. And life is busy so no one has time to devote… So, the people who jhelofy me without complaining are the ones who have spoilt me to the core… At times, they treat me like a small spoilt kid who dunno anything about life and people… And makes me realize so many things I ignore to notice… And I don’t appreciate but I love them for this.. I don’t know nor I have words to thank them for this.. :D

O dear God, I feel very privileged and lucky to have such people… It’s very difficult to find people who understand you so well… *touchwood*

I am not a very expressive person, so, most of the times... I am unable to speak what I feel… The good I feel is mostly hidden… but the bad I feel is mostly on my face… but having such people who even understand that  the expressions are temporary and kiddish… and the feelings I posses are real and true is a pure blessing…. 

I wish to write so much… but, I am running short of words… 

I have seen and met people, who are there for you only when you are happy, but the moment you are in tough situation or in a mid of a mood swing they drop you like a hot potato… I am not criticizing such people but I must say they can’t be anybody’s friend. People who switch their friends as per their requirement at that point of time are simply don’t deserve friendship…. And they are like an eye-opener which makes you realize…. People can be illusive…

But, all is well when the end is well…. And there is no end to true friendships… Me and my friends do fight like kids… but that only adds on to our understanding towards each other…. And then of course, they know me so well… that we rarely need too many words to patch up…. :-)

Dear God, Thank you so much for these people in my life…. You know what you have given me… Of course, you never forget to add some negative elements in my life to give me a “Disney movie” feel… And expect your princess to manage it all… :P

But, trust me I will… Because, I know You are with me…. And My people are with me… And together we’ll win the game… Love You… Muaah.. :D  :-)

DAY 1: Work without my Car!

Before beginning with the post I would to like to mention that here the work is “SALES” so when I say work without a car… It means something genuinely uncomfortable!

I guess, I’ll start with how I m struck in this situation… well…. It all happened on a very pleasant day… the day I love the most ‘FRIDAY’…  A Friday afternoon.

As usual, I was driving my car… going for a meeting…. happily singing a song…. On a crowd less road… where I met an accident... It wasn’t just any simple hit it was kinda major…. A bikewala hit my car badly without seeing the indicator due to which he got injured and I ended up losing one door of my car and the other door was damaged…

Anyways, my primary concern was that guy who was bleeding…  As that was not the point to argue on whose fault it was… I took him to the hospital and dropped him back…. After that my concern was my car… It was a major loss so I decided to call up insurance guy to guide me how to go about it… He told me a long process which I decided to follow…

My Saturday went in searching for a workshop where I can give my car and get it repaired at earliest… as well as in fewer outflows of cash…. Finally, my search ended on a workshop in Vasant Kunj where I decided to give my car and the workshop guy ensured me its return in 4 days i.e., by Thursday most probably…

Phewww! Long story it was… Anyways, now I was bothered about my work… Being in sales it’s very difficult to go without a car… Sunday I was mostly sleeping and doing tp… By the end of the day I convinced myself that “It’s gonna be an adventure to be without a car… I’ll explore the city in public transport once again after 2 years… yayy!” :P

Though from inside I was saying “it won’t be that bad... after all people do live without a car”….

Ah… Started Monday… I luckily got lift till office with a colleague of mine who stays in South Delhi… Then comes the meetings part…. I was lucky as I had just one meeting today… that too I managed in metro…

After years, I travelled in Metro…. It was not really a bad experience… Honestly speaking… sometimes it’s required to come out of your comfort zone and work like mostly people do… Well, yes, I lack patience and I hate public transport but it’s all because I always had a choice to avoid it… today, I had no choice so I used it… It wasn’t actually my wish though… :P

I spent around 4 hrs in just one meeting due to this public transport thing… I am sure with car it’s just a matter of 2.5 hrs at max… Life can’t be same every time…

But… God, seriously yaa… Thank You so much for being there for me… Good and bad days do come but it’s all required at times… It only makes us versatile and strong…. And I am happy, Really… So don’t worry.. ;-)

Just take care of my people…. Love you… Muaah! :-))

The 'Friday' Feeling! \m/

Yesterday was Friday and while driving back home after a nice evening I was thinking on 'Fridays are truly awesome'... And its not just yesterday, I think of it on every Friday....

Though.. everyday is new... everyday is different with somewhat different feel...

Lets start with Mondays..
Mondays are very lethargic.. rarely charged up.. Unless I am looking forward to something meaningful! Although Mondays are start of a new week but as they say mornings are laziest part of the day... Mondays are the laziest day of the week..

Tuesday comes with a hope that thank God... Only 3 more days to go for Friday.. Lets work hard ;-)

Wednesday says yayy! Friday is near.... Lets finish up the tasks beforehand to avoid any last minute Friday hassles :D

Thursdays are usually busy... to wind up stuff and fix up few meetings for Friday.. So that I can enjoy my weekend without a guilt of not performing well..

And FINALLY, the Friday! ohh... Its a brilliant incomparable feel... very hard to describe...

Fridays are the best even if I remain busy in my office or do not party at all.. I still love Fridays... I love that different feel... "The Friday feel'... :D

Fridays are the even better when I am eagerly waiting for some movie to release... Last one I remember was 'Rockstar release' Friday.. I was crazily waiting for that one..

My weekends are usually working, so, anyhow Saturday- Sundays are special but I am rarely very sure about what I am gonna do on my weekend... Honestly, I love sleeping, cooking or just relaxing by doing nothing on weekends (provided they are off)...

Weekends are uncertain but Fridays are certainly rocking... :-)

Well, its almost 6 days to go for another Friday... But I guess the wait will start from Monday.. Till then I'll enjoy my weekend... Cheers!!

Happy Weekend dear God ;-)

I Love Shoes!

Well.. I wanted to name the post's title as "women loves shoes"... but then I thought... All women are different... It'll be an injustice to our gender to say that... ;-)

Although, I am still very sure... Majority of Women loves Shoes.. I really dunno what is behind this particular attraction.. Not just shoes women are mostly inclined towards handbags, perfumes, black/pink clothes.. Till date.. I never came across anyone (men & women) saying that they hate black dresses/outfits except my dad... Though His reasons are different for not liking black..

Anyways.. Coming back to Women... Yea.. they love beautiful things... glitters... jewellery, accessories, good looking technologies (many women compromise on technological features and details)... You'll rarely find any girl carrying ugly looking or very big mobile phone or any other gadget.. Women are more interested in reliability than anything else... They love to look good and can spend endlessly on this.... They love gossips... Well... I can write a book on this... Wait! I can write a book on men too.... :P

For now.. I'll better stick to what I was writing... i.e., My love for shoes... :P

I personally feel here is something attached to everything related to my feet... whether it is shoes... feet care... Nail paint... foot accessories.. foot massage or anything... It makes me feels so happy when I do anything for my feet... :-)

And among everything related to feet... I love shoes the most... Reason are many.. I don't need to spend much time on choosing them... Its a real feel good factor to possess a great pair of red heels.. black pumps... comfortable running shoes.. Golden & Silver flats... Beige ballet shoes (I love calling them "Madeline shoes", Inspired from a cartoon character named Madeline who used to wear such shoes), brown boots... it feels like I have so much comfort :D

Good and complementing shoes can change the entire look of a person... It makes one feel better... More confident... Specially high heels... Shoes color and type can define a person's inner personality as well... So, if you are aware of this you can know a few things about a person without even having a word with him/her just with a glance at the shoes..

My love for shoes compelled me to further research on this topic and I came across some interesting findings. I would love to share a few lines from some interesting ones-

Women and Shoes: A Love Story-

There's some serious mood-boosting going on when you try on any kind of apparel. "The neurotransmitter dopamine is released, providing a feel-good high, similar to taking a drug," says Martin Lindstrom, a branding expert for Fortune 100 companies and author of Buyology: Truth and Lies About Why We Buy. "The dopamine increases until you swipe your debit card." Usually, the high then flatlines, and guilt starts creeping in...except, that is, when the item you're purchasing is a pair of shoes. "Shoppers rationalize shoes as a practical buy — something they can wear multiple times a week — so they hold on to that pleasurable feeling longer," says Lindstrom.

My Review- Interesting Research

You can read the full article on Cosmopolitan

Top Reasons Women Loves Shoes-

Shoes work real magic “Give a girl the right shoes, and she can conquer the world.” ― Marilyn Monroe. I feel like I'm on top'a the world in my shoes:) I can be wearing anything at all..it could be the most boring, dull outfit...but as soon as I put on the right pair of shoes, I become Cinderella. Like magic :) There isn't one pair of heels in my closet that don't work that magic. I always said shoes were the most important part of the outfit :) And yes, shoes and clothes for women have so, so, so much more variety than the mens stuff. Colours, shapes, sizes, fabrics/materials, clasps, buckles, straps, jewels...there's no stopping the creativity with shoes.

My Review- Brilliant Article

You can read the full article on About.com

Why do women love shoes?

- the shoes are great accessories
- even if you gain weight, you are the same size
- when having the need to treat themselves, women buy shoes and they are happy
- wearing the right pair of shoes increases the self esteem
- the shoes with high heels makes her feel like having longer lags
- the shoes are the expression of their identity as great women
My Review- I pasted the best part above!

You can read the full article on Shiny Grey

Well, the search on Google suggested number of results as always... So I shared the ones I liked... :-)
Hope you'll find them interesting... And you can share if you come across anything interesting on the topic... I would love to read that.. :-)

Expressions- VI

My weekend was good… but mood is not… I have many things to write… but this is not the best time…. I’ll come up with my post soon….

Sourav and Nazish I’ll try to do the tags as soon as possible…

Missing your posts Amal…. When you are planning your comeback??

And I know I have missed few posts of my fellow bloggers but I’ll read them very soon…
This is one of the most intense mood fluctuations…… But I'll be fine soon...

This post was just to mark my present here and I am still alive.

Will be back soon….

How can I forget to Thank You God… For everything!

Expressions-V

Yayy!!! I am so damn happy.... :D

Today was good... My first guest lecture of the semester went Awesome and everything was great :)

I just loved it overall.... And I also got a new opportunity..... I will share it very soon let it turn into something productive.... I am just hopeful and positive and excited and happy and........ :) :)

Lets see whats in store for me.... :))

Thank you God for being with me.... Love ya.... :D

Expressions-IV

Dominated by a kinda fear….. dunno what….. May be a fear of losing things I love…. Life is just great… And I am scared of the perfections or rather say m too blind to see the imperfections…. having strange dreams from last two nights about people I love and care about….. Last night in dream I was scared and hugged my mom tight and was feeling so safe and secured…. Had a similar dream last to last night too…. I love my mom though I never say this…. Why it’s always too hard to express to the people you truly love….!!! :(
Have to go office now and m feeling lethargic…. Had my espresso and work out… now feel like sleeping again but I can’t….. And this is the moment where I miss college…there I used to skip classes without giving it a second thought…… :((
Excited about my second official trip…. ;) leaving tomorrow morning for Dehradun for 5 days… have to start with packing but before that I have office and lotsa work….
Strange feelings within…. Though am excited…. Very excited about tomorrow…. :D
Please God take care of the people I love…. Love ya…. And thanks for giving me such a perfect Life.... :D

Expressions-III

Aah.. m feeling just too tired to write but i really wanna write... working like anything even on saturdays... 13-14 hours a day.... And guess what am loving it.... right now am badly tired and exhausted.... i worked for 14 hours today and have to leave for Amritsar for my project work in the morning... its already 12.50AM and m up since 4AM.... Ah m tired.... just got my bag packed for my first official trip ;)... Am really excited... Wow!!! new place... new people... new work environment(for 3 days though).... And the best part the beautiful Golden temple and my camera... :)) :D

Now... Am just left with 3 hours for rest.... And i badly need it....

Feeling Happy and Excited.... :D

Loving my life.... Love you God.... :)

Expressions-II

Feeling exceptionally…. crazily happy….. Is it caffeine affect….. My overdose of coffee or something else….. Life going cool….. Just waiting for few really important results with my fingers crossed…. Damn am loving my work….. enjoying music like anything…. Worst part I walked for 1 hour 30 minutes without realizing the time…. I felt it when my body started aching…. Had conversation with an old pal and we were laughing like anything…. fighting like anything…. Missed old good times… :)
Feeling Blessed and happy…. :D
Thank you God…. Love you for giving me such a brilliant Life!! :D

Expressions-I

Not feeling good… feeling really upset…. Feel like writing so much and don’t even feel like writing it down in my diary I know I need to…. Wanna express every damn thing inside me…. But I know I won’t… I’ll never…. Things so……. Hell!!!!! I wanna go somewhere far away….. Need a break from everything…. It feels like something killing me inside…. Feeling not leaving me….I wanna scream i wanna cry….. I just feel like destructing everything…. Feeling dead... negativity ruling my mind.......

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