Man's World!

Nowadays, I see everyone in my friend’s list is getting either committed or married or engaged…. Well, congrats to all of them… And may God bless them… But, at times I feel, are they in hurry or I am being indifferent towards this marriage thing… God Knows!

I seriously feel, I need to do well in my career…. Though I am not anti-marriage, I’ll certainly get settled... but, I am not in hurry…. I am career- focused right now…. And that bothers me more than anything else…

They say, priorities change once you are married…. Well, may be… I dunno…. M not married yet so no comments… It might be right…

Now days, I find my committed friends giving advices to me that I should also get married or engaged or something like that…. During this discussion,  I discovered a male mindset which I found very disappointing.

While discussing, a guy said that gals who travel in their jobs are not marriageable and 2 others supported him…. Which shocked me…. hurt me and badly disappointed me… for me I am a girl who loves to travel!

Now, my simple question is guys can grow in their lives, guys can work wherever they like, guys can travel wherever they want for work…. Then WHY CAN’T GIRLS?

If a guy expects his girl to support him for his career moves, his decisions, his opportunities then WHY CAN’T A GIRL EXPECT THE SAME?

In which world am I living…. Which century… which environment…. Where people have changed their dress up sense, lifestyles, culture but the thought process is still so small and biased….

In the end in any relationship, whether it’s parental, couple, friendship, brother-sister or any other relation, its all about faith and trust… If it’s not there then relationship is of no use…

I have seen guys and girls cheating on their better halves in normal routine lives with a very settled boring jobs… what I feel is people cheat when they are bored of their monotonous life while for some people it’s simply their character which can’t be changed…. What is there to do with travel!

One should feel content and satisfied in their lifestyle and it can only be there when they will do well in their personal and professional lives…. I agree, with time priorities do change but does that mean you stop growing in life?

Every individual needs their space to grow, whether it’s personal or professional, whether it’s a girl or a guy… 

We live in a world where we are raised in a family where guys and girls are treated as equal…. They are provided with equal facilities and equal respect…. they dream individually…. To grow in their lives… At least, I can say this for myself…. I am really happy and proud to say that my family gave me and my brothers  kinda upbringing where we understand guys and gals deserves equal space…

I dunno why, I am so disappointed with this kind of mentality of guys…. I feel sorry for them…. Honesty, If they are like this then where are we moving… what kinda upbringing their kids will ever get…. Where our country will move…. Gosh! Even though guys pretend to be so modern and open minded that they wanna walk with a lady wearing a pair of jeans but not an independent outlook towards their career!

Well, may be it’s only me who thinks this way. But yes, It’s indeed sad...!

Craving!

There are certain times when it’s difficult to figure out what we are feeling….  Something similar is happening with me…. I dunno what I am feeling… Whether I am sad or happy… 

I can sense some kinda craving…. Might be coffee… but I doubt its coffee… After having 4 strong espressos I rarely feel any more starvation for coffee… It might be the effect of access of caffeine may be…. 

Weird it is to understand… Its giving me a kinda head ache…. Some sort of discomfort in thinking process, I might be a craving for a break… Let’s see… Or stress of work giving me this restlessness…. I really dunno… I feel like destructing everything within and outside...

All I can sense is this is the feeling which a bird must be having while being locked in a cage… running around here and there… trying hard to get the freedom… I m not feeling comfortable… It’s a true restlessness feel… When I dunno from what I am trying to run and to reach where or to achieve what…

What I know is I am craving to get free from this feel…. I am not enjoying it…. Feel like running away to a far off place away from everything and never wanna come back… My soul wanna shout very badly… Something is not good…. Something is not right…

God, I need you… Please help me! :-(

Missing link.....!!

Life is being different and not so brilliant lately… I thought I’ll give myself some more time to realize what’s going missing and why I am lacking that spark inside…. Everyday end up with a feeling of restlessness and dissatisfaction…. Leaving behind regret that one more day is wasted in running in a “rat race”…..

People might be happy living such life…. But I am not nor I wanna get used to it…. I can’t even abuse here huh… I have not seen such people in my life…. Hell man! So mean…. Forget about friendship they don’t even know the meaning of being human….. Their every act… every step is selfish….. This is not my world and I am dead sure! I know myself I can do much better things in life… I gave myself time and now I have realized….

I was so much happy being a student…. Dunno why I am here….. This is not something I wanted….. I can feel the suffocation inside… From past 3 days when I leave my office for home I feel like crying… I carry so much of hurt inside.... Something badly wounded.... As if my soul is tapped in a prison crying and craving for freedom…. I feel like am in a world of machines where everybody is just doing programmed things without any sense of emotion…. May be I am not liking anything nor I can cope up with it… that’s why its making me so negative….. I am workaholic….. I can do well in life… dunno why I am wasting myself….. the worst part is…. Hell yaar! I don’t wanna mention here…. Huh…. My blog is now more towards negativity…. Spiderman I & II are over its time for Spiderman III now…. Darkness all over my mind…. Driving me crazy…

I am angry with you God! Believe me I never expected this from you… If you are punishing me for my sins then I guess you should stop now its already too much!

Anyhow I cant stop loving you... And I am thankful for good things you gave me.... My people.... My family and friends..... And of course many other things too but please help me out.... You know I am in trouble.... I am waiting for your reply God..... Love ya...

Disney Sunday!

Only I know how eagerly I waited for this one day…. SUNDAY….. No, it’s not because I hate my job…. Because there are many others things as well….

I planned my Sunday last night… And the whole plan was to do whatever I feel like… So I watched a movie till late last night… got up late…. Prepared a cup of black coffee and switched on to my favorite Disney movie… This Sunday it was ‘Meet the Robinsons’…. Ohh… I am lacking words to express how good I felt after watching it…. It’s silly to say but I cried in the end with a smile on my lips… That feeling was so good and contented… I am almost feeling rejuvenated….

I was missing the time when I used to watch Disney for hours….. Anyhow life changes with time…. My week wasn’t good at all… Had nothing much to do in office and I simply hated it… All the time doing stupid sitting work staring into the system…. huh… And all the time I was thinking where I am…. This was not what I wanted from life…. What can be done to make it the way I want it to be… and so on…. Mind was full of weird stuff all the time…. Involved in deep philosophy….. I would rather think of something creative and interesting….. I got only this one life…. I don’t wanna waste it…. Don’t wanna waste a single second of it and I wasted a week…. :((

I dunno….. why… :((….. I am trying to analyze and figure out what’s going missing…. What can be done…. I guess I should try some meditation… May be it’s all because I am impatient to the core…. Or should I join some weekend activity or something…… Or or… what else :(( even if I meet my friends it’s for sometime…. After that good time I again start thinking the same…. Aww…. Its not a good sign…. :((

I dunno about coming days…. But am lacking positivity from within…… I am not like this…. I just pray for good….

God please make things happen…. Please :( ….. Your favorite is not feeling good with the things around…

Love ya… Help me! And no smile for ya this time :(

I am gonna miss my college days :-(

Today was my last exam of last semester and now my college is officially over…. And I am an MBA now…. I dunno whether to smile or to feel sad…. But I choose to be happy :-)….

It was great experience being here…. Two years…. I learnt many things…. Now when I look back I feel….the changes… It’s the similar feeling I had when I graduated two years back… how time changes and how life keeps on moving without a pause…. People come… people go…. We laugh we cry…. Some really low moments…. Some really high…. Life is so beautiful in its own way….

In my last 2 years of MBA I met many people…. I was attached to many…. And worked and enjoyed with everybody I came across…. I discovered a different me…. More self centered, bad and self indulged me… And I improved as well in terms of public speaking, anchoring, organizing and so on…

All I can now recall is that first presentation when I was shivering with stage fear…. That first interview for organizing committee… those events we organized and clubs inaugurated… first event I hosted…..those proxies… talks….. Hanging out at shopprix and spice mall every now and then….. bunking classes…. Rehearsals… Practices….Improvements… Exams…. And so on…. Life was always fun and exciting here….

I have learnt very good problem handling skills and stress management….. How to meet deadlines ;)… by completing a week long assignment overnight… All those group tasks which compelled us to stay up all night with our gtalk on…. All those frequent semester exams….

These two years of my life were really good… I know what I have learnt….. I can sense the changes in me… I met some really great people…. I would not name all of them here but yes my marketing professor late. Professor S.K. Jaimini had a great impact on me…. I still miss his presence every time I achieve something…. :-(

My internship was like a turning point which gave me a very good exposure and learning experience and I really appreciate my boss who was not just a boss but also a strict teacher who taught us practical management lessons….

Apart from these two people….. I met many who contributed to my life in one or the other way…. I was encouraged, appreciated, criticized and discouraged time to time…. But it always added towards my learning and helped me to learn and become better with every step…

I would love to mention the names of people who were always there for me… whether we talk daily or not and those who were always there for me as a life supporting system…. But I’ll not because I don’t wanna hurt anybody my skipping their name by mistake….. :D…. those who are special for me know this and understand this….

Everybody expects from their family because they are the people sent by God for us…. It’s very difficult to find people outside family from whom you can expect…. And I am one lucky person…. I met such people at every step of my life….. :-) :-)

I feel that I am kinda detached soul…. But still I miss people from my past…. Places… time… memories… tears and smiles…. I can relate to everything I left behind…. And touchwood I feel blessed because whenever I look back I find my people standing there for me… :-)

Now, I am going to start with my professional life… I just wish all my friends and acquaintances all the best for their future endeavors… I hope to stay connected with you all…. God Bless you….

And thank you God! Muaah :D..