My best Christmas Ever!

I wanted to write this from the day it happened... It was truly the best Christmas of my life.

I always believed in Santa Claus, from the very first day I learnt about Christmas...

You may say, I was born and brought up in a set-up, where, as a kid.... all we had was a perfect family, not so perfect situations, a small TV,  and ample time to play and weave dreams...

I still remember how eagerly I used to wait for Christmas eve, watch all Christmas cartoons on Doordarshan before Disney took over and wait for Santaclaus with a list... in a hope... I was a born optimist! :P

Santa Claus never came; I never got any gifts near my pillow on any Christmas morning... I used to feel heart-broken... but, I changed that for my brothers, they always had a Santa to gift them whatever they wished for... For initial years... they didn’t know that there was no Santa in real and that was a true feeling of success for me :)

With time, I changed in size and looks but from inside I was always the same girl who wished for a miracle... till today... I believe in miracles and yes, I have witnessed many of them...

One such miracle was my last year’s Christmas!

It was my best Christmas ever... And it gave me an experience of a lifetime which I’ll never forget...

In December 2014, I planned a trip with a group of people who were travelling to south India. I am a travel freak, so, even though I didn’t know all of them I decided to join them.

Since my plan was finalised at the last moment... My flights were different from the rest of the group... 

A day before Christmas, All energized... I was at the airport to catch my flight for Chennai... 

Although I was alone, I felt like I belong to the airport... I was very happy and excited... Much before time, I was standing a queue for security check when I realised... I missed my flight... how... when... and why... were of no use... My flight was gone and I was standing there without luggage for a security check...

I was furious and upset... I complained.. requested.. argued.. shouted.. pleaded and tried everything to convince them to send me to Chennai... but all waste...

I decided to go to Chennai come what may... I was already separated from the group... And since they had to go to Pondicherry from Chennai they proceeded while was stuck at the airport in Delhi...

After 7 hours and all the efforts, they agreed to give me a seat in a connecting flight to Chennai... I was delighted... I left my home at 4 am and I reached Chennai at 8 pm...

Aahhhh... I can’t explain what a great feeling it was when I first came out of air-plane and inhaled the first gulp of air in that warm weather of Chennai, I was instantly in love... I stepped-in to Chennai airport... It was beautifully decorated for Christmas eve... My fone was dead... So, I first decided to charge my fone... I saw a socket and sat there on the airport floor while my fone was charging... Amazing feel... I dunno why I feel like home everywhere I go... As if I was born to travel.. :))

I charged my fone, called up home to inform I was safe, booked a hotel to stay.. took a cab and enjoyed the drive through the decorated Chennai on the Christmas eve... My hotel was brilliantly highlighted for Christmas... And that was the time... when I realized.. this was my true gift for Christmas which I always waited for... if I wouldn’t have missed my flight I would have been somewhere else, missing this beautiful experience... I thanked Santa and checked in...

I was planning solo travel from a very long time but never got permission from family... this one day in Chennai was my gift for a lifetime... I was all solo and decided to roam around in Chennai all alone... I had one day with me... Christmas day it was...

I got up early, checked the internet and penned down places I wanted to visit... I visited 3 churches on Christmas... blissful... bought homemade cakes... checked out serene beaches of Chennai... talked to strangers, clicked pictures and realised life couldn’t b better...

And again my fone was dead... So, I visited a mall there and bought a power bank for my fone, it was so like a mall in Delhi yet so different, finally... I decided to roam around in T-Nagar market to get the feel of being a local and try some authentic roadside south Indian food... And trust me that was the best part of my day... I loved the food sooooo much... I roamed in the market for around 2 hours... eating everything or rather say overeating everything... :P

Seriously, I felt 1 day was too short, and it was the best trip of my life... next day, I met the group and we proceeded for Coorg but in the entire trip the best was my one day in Chennai...

All my life I waited for Santa and He gave me all the gifts I could have asked for in just one day... Without even asking.. :-)

I love you, God... I know I am your favourite... bless my people and thank you for everything... muaah :))) 

For old times' sake! :)

Sometimes, in fact most of the times, I really find myself paralysed when its about expressing anything... I am really a difficult human being and I hate myself for being so...

I try so hard at times to say or do certain things which I just can’t do... It’s like an injury or a disability... disability of expressing me to the people who matter the most... :-(

Yesterday, I went to my college campus with an old friend of mine... It sounds funny but yes, I am in search of my self... What I was... what I am.... what happened... what changed.... and what not... I know I am crazily weird at times but that’s ok... I should like myself... the way I am... Rest, doesn’t really matter! :P

So, since I was going through this emotional turmoil... And was trying to figure out what actually is wrong with me I decided to look back.... back in time where I was truly happy... I know I was a very different individual at that point of time but, I need to understand me.... discover more of myself...

I decided to go back to my campus... I miss my college days... So, I along with my friend decided to live one day... the way we used to live 7 years back...

I wore my sports shoes, took my fone, some cash in pocket (like I used to do in college) and took metro for my campus... I reached there by 10.30am... Met my friend there and we started walking towards our breakfast junction.... On the way, I was searching for “bhelpuri wale uncle”... He wasn’t there so I asked another vendor standing there about him; I got to know that he comes around 1pm... I was happy to know he is all well...

We reached our old adda for breakfast and asked for “meetha samosa” the guy said it was out of stock and they’ll be making it soon again... We ordered “aloo samosa”, tea & my black coffee... finished it and proceeded...

On the way, we ate our desi burger from a thela... And continued walking towards a decent place to sit... we went to our old place where we used to eat... but it was locked... We visited our department in Science faculty... And finally, we decided to sit inside the law faculty campus... We sat there and talked for almost 2 hours... About how life changed, our learnings from job life and so on...

We realized it was 1pm.... bhelpuri time.... So, we started walking... I saw uncle, he was looking old and weak.... He recognised me instantly... I wanted to ask him for photo but somehow, I find it impossible to say things which I should... We ate bhelpuri... All the while, I was thinking of asking uncle for a picture but I was not able to... while leaving... I clicked his picture where he was surrounded by people...

We decided to go to our college and sit there... We went to our college canteen and ate our favourite “triangle wala dosa” with flavoured milk... We then decided to sit there for some time... Again we continued sharing about life and happenings and we realised it was 4.30pm...

We headed towards our favourite “Pastry shop” and ordered our favourite “Rum ball”... finished it and decided to take a round of “Kamla Nagar Market”... It was truly nostalgic... though it changed a lot in 7 years... I purchased “Anklets” for my Goa collection.... While leaving market we saw “Giani’s” and ate ice-cream...

My friend said, “Main ja raha hun meethe samose khaane, tera kya plan hai” it was so like him... And I replied, “mera bhi yehi plan hai” and we started walking towards our destination.... We ate our “Meethe Samose” and it was 6pm...

We decided to leave for home.... So, we waved hands and took our respective metros...

I luckily got seat in metro and as usual I was lost in my thoughts... And realised I reached my destination...

I was a great day indeed... I was not carrying my camera so I clicked few pics from my fone which I am going to share... Each one with a story to tell....

Thank you God, once again for everything... Love you! Bless my people... :-)

A Different Phase!

It's a comeback... 

Yes, It's a comeback of what I used to be when I ever started blogging!

I thought I’ll restart writing many times but somehow I lacked that courage inside... I lacked that confidence of putting my blog on public forum again.. And trust me, it took me long to gather myself and be here again... And now I am in a phase where I bother no more!

Life is all about facing your fears and reverting back to them with a hard punch on their nose. I learnt hard lessons of life in last two years... Though, I am sure we all learn something or the other everyday with everything we do... Today, I am at a point where I fear no more... Come what may...

When I tried to come back last time there were external elements who tried to stop me... because no matter what there will always be some people who will internally wish that you should not live...

But, let me tell you... you should live with even more enthusiasm... because you have more reasons to be happy... And some losers can’t rule your life... \m/

This time I am not here to run or hide, I am here to write & live in the best possible manner I can... To all those who wanna stop me... I just have to say.... “Go get a life for yourself”... actually, I would love to abuse them as well but I don’t wanna spoil my blog by doing so... ;-)

By the way, my Pearl’s  5^th birthday is coming very soon... So, I should be more active... :-)

Today is one important day... I have to give my first presentation in my new office and I am kinda stressed... let’s see... I am hoping for all well with my fingers crossed...

Last week, I turned 27, to be precise last Tuesday itself... But I am still not feeling mature :P

I believe it’s not about age, its about experiences which help in growing up... For me I am still a Disney lover... I watched more Disney movies in last month and cherished them with all my heart... And wished again with all my power that it should come true :-) I know... Silly me... hehe

I think I’ll now get ready for work... Will share many interesting things happened and happening in life... I never thought I’ll meet so many stars but I did... Life is simply good...

Thank  you God. I love you.. :-) Please take care of my people!

Weird Me! :P

I love winters… I even love summers…. But monsoons drive me super crazy.. :-))

God, I know you made rains to take some kinda revenge from me…. I don’t feel like doing anything on a rainy day... I just feel like getting drenched in the pouring water from sky… :P

Life is indeed good… And monsoon is truly beautiful…

Half of my team is in Goa from office… My office rewarded last year’s performers by a sponsored trip to Goa… Lucky people… I m here dreaming of it… dyinnggggg to go…. :-(

Anyways, there was a guy in my team not interested in going I counseled him that he should go… After all Goa is religious place when alcohol is your religion.. Convincing somebody to go Goa... that too when it’s FREE of cost... is a Godly work…  :P

Ahhh Goa, even the thought induces excitement inside me… :-D

I don’t really appreciate discussing about work after work hours, but we can discuss workplace of course… while driving today my brain was busy thinking.. as usual… sometimes, I feel it also runs on diesel :P

So, I was thinking why professionalism and friendship can’t go hand in hand… few days back when I got this team to work with… I had nice terms with every one… We used to share lunchbox, laughs and general talks apart from work… But, as soon as number pressure started building up… that so called ‘good terms’ changed in to professionalism… of course, work is the priority and if the team I got will not work from where will I meet my numbers…

Sometimes we need to choose, we intentionally murder one relation to survive the other one…  at times without our will…! :-(

I very strongly believe that I am a feeling less, cold blooded, devilish girl… but I hate it when emotions bother me… they should not be a part of me at all… They only create barriers in life… I hate this part of me… Emotions are like an injured body part… they don’t leave you but compel you  to bear the extreme pain and live with it…

But I hate how strongly and extremely I think about things… God, you made me a weird person! :P

Dear God, If you call this growing up… I am not really having fun in it… After all life is all about having fun :-))))… So, you kindly alter it and make it interesting and happening for your favorite girl…  :-)

I am willing to write a lot…. About every damn thing… My yesterday’s trip to Manesar…. My PC trouble… My SALE plan…. Brothers’ Birthday planning and what not…. Bhai log’s birthday is the topmost priority as of now… I wanna make it grand this time… beyond their imagination… :D Lets see… lets see…

Weekend is also near… Another interesting movie coming up… yayy! :-))), also, I wanna go for photography… I wanna click… Just need a push… May be a company would do…  I am way too lazy…. :-) :-)

God, I love you for being there for me…. Just stand by me.. Give me strength to carry on… And take care of my people...! Muuaaaah :-) :-)

All is well, All is well!! :-)

When things are going against you... Always remember, there is always something to be thankful for... You'll find thousand things... Thank God for giving you chance to find your true Superhero power... Most people never realize how powerful & blessed they are... You are lucky if you do! :-) :-)

It’s a beautiful Monday morning :-)… beautiful weather.. strong coffee… And everything full of excitement… :D

A major goof up has happened at my workplace though I am not truly responsible, but, I am the one to be blamed for it… after all I am a Sales person… :P…. So, I am trying to gather all my positivity to resolve it… And since Saturday I am telling myself  “All is Well”…

This major trouble panicked me on Saturday… But since it was a Saturday eve… I decided to focus on party as I had two options either to enjoy my party or spoil it by thinking… So, I decided to choose former option & I had a great evening… Awesome food, drinks & shopping ;-))

Out of my dream world, it’s a real & practical Monday where I have to face what already happened… God, please save my life… I can sense now.. how big it is… And it’s time for me to be a warrior :P

Recently, I have started playing Ironman on my fone.. So, I’ll take some lessons from him… how to fly… gather all electricity in one go and shoot…. :P… Even when you are attacked & injured badly… you still regain your power by giving up few credits... It’s not an end :P

All is well… All is well…

On a serious note, I am totally scared… I dunno what will happen... I wish I could post my real expression here… But, what may happen… Let’s think of worst… I might lose my job or screw up my confirmation or affect my first appraisal very badly… what more… :P… It’s not an end of my life… It won’t affect my shopping, parties, my workout, plans of Goa & Bora Bora, bhai log’s birthday… things which truly matter won’t be affected… hmmm… :D :D

Sometimes I feel like Dennis of “Dennis the Menace”…. Queen of problems… All troubles love me so much that they automatically come attracted towards me… But, I guess that’s what is adding spice to my life… :-))… without these problems life will be like everybody else’s.. dull & boring… Of course, a Disney princess life can’t be boring & smooth… :-P

All is going to be fine... I just have to be calm & composed… which I know is a very difficult task :P

God, Please please be there with me… Like you are always… I understand you have followers and lots of work.. but today you have to be with me on priority… Love you…

And… Of course, take care of my people :-)) Muuuaaaah :* 

May Target VS Achievement- MTD! :P

In a typical sales language MTD is Month till date… The most commonly used abbr. by all bosses… So, starting with MTD of the targets set by me for the month of May… :P

It’s already 22^nd of the month and starting from the very beginning from where I left… 

My May Salary got credited in the 1st week of May… Since it was 2 months’ salary I got a good amount to enjoy… as decided, first thing I got was a phone for my brother… I planned to buy 3 phones though… 1^st one bought... Rests of them are on the way… Next was my watch box for the ‘watch collection’, so, I bought my ‘favorite red’ color box for 10 watches and also, I have bought an amazing pair of printed shorts for my ‘Goa collection’... :-)

Restarted with my savings… Got myself medically checked... started taking vitamins which were required… though not yet started with swimming and workout…

I have reconnected with my old friends… Met a few… Tried improving my social life..

I have also lined up an interview but most probably it will be next month…

So, now I have to buy 2 fones… dance classes, swimming & workout… My health was really bad throughout the entire month which compelled me to take antibiotics and I gained weight though stopped eating out from mid of May…. Let’s be positive for the month of June…

Summers are killer in Delhi… But, that’s the beauty of nature :-) never boring…

Now, I am waiting for my next salary… And have 8 days left in this month to fulfill what is left…

God, please give me strength and help me recover…. Take care of my family & friends… Love you… Muuaah :-)))

A journey in a Metro!

                       

Its after almost 7 years i traveled in Metro alone... Though I traveled with a friend once two yrs back... And she had a fair idea of metro routes...

I had this phobia of travelling in a crowded bus and metro from quite a long time...The fact was it was never actually required. MBA college was close to the place i stayed and from job i started driving...

Today was the day where this came to an end... It takes courage to face your fears... Although, for many its a very normal thing to use metro or bus... in fact, my mom, dad, bhai & people around me all are comfortable using public transport... I somehow find myself phobic to it.. It scares me... I dunno the reason… May be I don’t wanna come out the comfort zone I created for myself over the years...

In the morning, I reached my office on time and started calling people to fix up meetings for the day... A senior colleague asked me to come to our Chandni Chowk branch...

Chandni Chowk.. The most crowded place of Old Delhi... And its somewhat similar to Aligarh & Meerat. 

I asked people around me about how I can reach Chandni chowk as I never went there alone or never took my vehicle towards that area.

A generous colleague helped me by calling his friends and guided me... He told me there is no parking in that area so better take metro..

I was upset and reluctant.. I called up few more people to ask for route navigation…. I wanted to hear that 'yes' I can take my car but all suggested public transport...

After losing all hopes of going by car.. I told myself... “Dear girl, you have to travel the world... Entire country.... There you cannot take your car and you may not be able to hire a taxi always... So if today you are not comfortable using public transport of your own city, how will you do it while travelling the world?” And i realized, I am so right sometimes... :-P

This gave me courage and pumped my morale... I asked the guy which route I need to follow he guided me... And the journey began... Woohoo... :-)

Weird & funny me... I asked the way to metro station from 3 people... Still got lost... Finally entered and saw a long queue fr tickets... I saw a small queue for metro card lane... I chose to take a metro card... Got card, recharged it... And went towards the entry where the guard shouted, "yahan kahan ja rahi ho", I shouted back "toh aur kahan jaun mera purse scanner me le liya aur mujhe jane nahi de rahe"... He stared angrily and guided me towards female entry gate... I stared back very badly and walked fast towards platform...

Now, I followed instructions and waited for my metro... Metro stopped, I decided I’ll go in female coach but unluckily it was too far and I was standing away from it... I tried running towards it but realized gates were about to close so I quickly boarded in whatever I got…

Real bad people... Real bad crowd... Some people stare you like you are not wearing anything and its embarrassing...

I was standing in the middle holding a hanger... I counted stations... I was 11 stations away from my destination... I saw my watch multiple times... And passed my time by looking at watch... And counting stations...

I came out of metro station just like a lost girl in new town... Following instruction boards... It was so crowded.. I tried clicking a picture of crowd but a guard saw me and stopped me... He asked me to delete that pic in front of him... It was strange but I did it...

As told by a colleague... I knew I had to take rickshaw for Masjid from there our bank was near.. I did the same... I clicked pics from my fone sitting in rickshaw...

The place is so different... I really wish to come here for photography sometime... In the meanwhile i was thinking i have to come here this Saturday too for my friend's shopping for his wedding... :-)

I somehow feel.. if I’ll delete this from my mind what kinda people travel in metro and stop bothering about how they stare... it’ll b easier for me to travel... So, I m not giving up here... I faced my fear and it was not that bad what I used to think... I’ll do it again and till the time I overcome it... Though it’s not at all difficult to do so...

While going back I’ll try to take up women's coach... As I am still sitting in our Chandni chowk office and writing this while waiting for the meeting to get over and meet the person concerned...

Let’s see... What’s lined up now for going back…. I am quite optimistic about the journey back to my office... :-)

Chandni chowk 

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I finished my meeting, it was a nice interaction and headed back towards market to take a rickshaw… This time I was feeling more excited, confident and happy… As if I was enjoying the moment and waiting to travel in Metro to repair the bad experience…

I took a rickshaw and started talking to the rickshaw wala… bhaiyya, yahan kis din sabse zyada bheed rehti hai.. saree market kaunsi hai… lehenga market…. Suit market… jewellery market… gray market... what all are famous here to eat and so on…. And I reached metro station… After gaining the market knowledge I entered in to the metro station…

I was feeling happy… This time I took female specific coach and it was neat and clean… It was good and I was feeling safe... This time the journey seemed shorter and in precisely 25 mins I covered the distance which otherwise would have taken more than an hour by car…

Overall... I am happy and feeling comfortable for the next time… :-)

A good start for the month…! May Love :-D

God, Thanks for being there for me… I love you... Take of my people :-))) Muuaaah

New Month, New Targets! :-D

I am never generally excited about the month of May... But this time I am... Reasons are many..

First one is I'll be getting my first Salary in the new company.. Second one is I'll be getting Salary after 5 long months :P...

So, I have my targets set for this month.. I rarely set such targets for myself... But why should office only rule my life... by giving unrealistic targets when I can actually have great fun by giving myself some realistic personal exciting targets :-))

So, to begin with of course after getting my first salary I'll buy 3 phones on EMI... 2 for brothers, one for me... they have already decided which one they need and waiting for it, though, I am still super confused :'(... But anyhow, I'll make up my mind in 2-3 days... 

Second is Swimming... Summers are best time to spend time in water... So, I have to begin with my swimming classes.. Dance classes I'll only start after swimming... I don't wanna take so much on me with office which I'll have to miss.. 

Thirdly, I have to start with " wrist watch collection" & contribute towards my "Goa collection".. Though this month I'll be only buying the box for 10 watches :P... but that's only the beginning...

And last but not the least, I have to restart with my savings... As I have spent almost 50% of what I saved in last 5 salary-less months... But no regrets... that is what savings are meant for... The best utilization of a reserve is when you truly need it... :-) Although, I treat my wants also as my needs as long as I can.. :P

And yes, yesterday I met an inspirational person.. So, I also look for a new workplace on a serious note.. That's what I thought for myself when I started with my this job... So, the time is here.. Honeymoon period is coming to an end and I'll begin my search this month.. 

It will be great if I could loose some weight too... but not a target for this month... The target is to regain my health which is at a toss... I am eating out a lot... I need to control it... 

I have to get in touch with my old people... And repair my social life as well...

I think I have jotted down almost all major things decided... Now, one more task is to read this post every Monday to remind myself what I am supposed to do, and writing more posts on each accomplishment :P

God, of course you are needed to keep a check where I am going... And I am sure you will! Love you :-))