Right or Wrong!

The topic itself is very subjective... As the definition is absolutely different for each one of us... What is wrong might be right for some... and vice-versa.

Recently, media released a documentary projecting the views of a rapist involved in Nirbhaya’s case.. listening to which I had a strong urge to kill those 5 people... And their mindset killed something inside me... So helpless I feel... what a useless existence I have if I can’t do anything to change this!

I was thinking about the points he said, the crime he committed... and our law’s take on it... I wonder what our government is waiting for. Why is he still alive?

But, thinking deeper on it, I asked myself “Is all law so weak, or, we as a society are incapable?”

We all blame law & order, it’s easy... but are we strong enough to raise our voice against wrong things.... And the answer is clear NO!

We all think about our individual existence, these cases like rapes, robberies are happening publicly but what people are doing except for keeping their mouth shut... I sometimes hate it... people can argue, gossip & crib later but when it’s about taking a stand for right or wrong they only think about themselves as an individual and stay quiet... If we as an individual will not stand against wrong we won’t be able to stop injustice... it’s not law... It’s ‘us’!

People always favour the one in power whether it is political or any other... no matter whether he/she is right or wrong... We live in a country where if you are strong ‘power-wise’ or ‘position-wise’ you are always right... And no one is bothered about the one who is weak, whether he/she is actually wrong or not..... And our media shows what they are paid for... It’s all “Power Game”...

Politics, law & order are very different level altogether... And most of it is beyond our control but this power game can be seen easily everywhere.. Be it a corporate or college or any other organisation...

No one supports an individual fighting against wrong... Everyone is only concerned about their existence, promotion, reputation etc... When we love gossiping and debating about these big level issues and blame our law and order why can’t we look around us and see what we are really upto... Most of the times people never support the ‘right thing’ till the time they are also affected... They blindly support the one in power... Issues are ignored completely till the time its personal! 

For rapists and murderers, we love saying “inko faansi pe chadha dena chahiye!”, “goli maar deni chahiye” but really what we are from inside... They can be hanged till death if only we learn to take our stand... I wonder, I live in a country where people died fighting and today all I see around me is a bunch of individuals living for their comfort and cribbing about social issues without even trying to play their part.... No one cares about right or wrong... All they know is their existence... And talk about justice... Bullshit!

The problem is we love cribbing & gossiping but don’t wanna take an initiative to stand against wrong... When its about taking a stand even the so called 'independent' guys are like "chhod na yaar, apne ko kya"; "hum kyu fassein, hone de jo ho raha hai"!

I feel I live in an era of “Spineless” youth....

And, alone I can’t change everything but... that cannot stop me from playing my part... I am not scared or afraid....

For... if I am right I fear nothing!

God, give me strength to not only stand for what is right but, also, to accept the fact that you are all alone when you take a stand! Amen.

Amnesiac Me!

I always wanted to have a poor memory... Not because I don't want to remember things.. But, I hate remembering everything which often leads to over thinking...

Lately, I have realized or rather observed I am losing my past from my brain... Or experiencing a different phase may be... I can't recall things easily from my memory and its not just memory I find it almost impossible to recollect what I did last week, month, yesterday or even in the morning... I forget about movies watched, places visited and people met... Forgetting faces and names is just very normal for me... May be this has helped me in maintaining a diary at workplace... ;-)

Its something like an initial stage of amnesia of 'Drew Barrymore' as shown in '50 first dates' :P

And that's not all... I even face attacks from my memories... Like all of sudden I feel about certain people or moments very strongly and emotionally and all of sudden in fraction of second I go blank... I am not sure whether its serious or not but I wanted to jot it down before I again forget what is happening.... :P

I really can't recall or feel the time when I started pearl and the feel is washed off... I can't feel many things but at the same time I feel certain things so bad that they hurt... And, I am not on any medication... Yes, I take my caffeine dose but that's under check...

At times, I go thinking about one thing for hours and in a second I forget it completely as if it never happened...

When I read my old posts.. I wonder... it's written by me... How's it possible... I mean I really thought all that.... That's really great work... :P but really... I mean its hard to believe...

I have changed mentally and emotionally although I am still weird emotionally but mentally I am total different human... I feel I dunno who I am... I keep searching myself.... And I dunno what all I jotted down... 

God, as usual I'll ask for the same thing which no amnesia can erase :P take care of my people and bless me with a poor memory... love you :)) :*

Mind your Own Business- Seriously! :P

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Next month on 15th February, I’ll complete 5 years of my professional life... Yes, FIVE long years... ;-)

And... After devoting all these years to my work life... I sincerely believe college life was the best in terms of certain things... This nowhere means I am not enjoying my life now... Yes, I am truly in love with the life I am living... Financial independence, responsibility, having the freedom to speak up and manage my time and money as per my own convenience, having a social life without a stress of finishing assignments and so on... And being single along with all this is an icing on the cake.... ;-)

This phase of life is indeed one of the best that could have happened... But in all this there is something which was still the best in college...

I remember in my MBA batch we had people from across the country.... They all were quite diverse in terms of culture, language, persona but they were all accepted as friends and there was no judgement about them on the basis of appearance or anything... The only thing which actually counted was their talent and brain!

But, on the contrary, professional life is very different... I often hear people talking about others' dress up... Lifestyle... Food habits... And they rarely appreciate the talent, brains and the hard work... Seriously, sometimes I feel like asking them... is this the job they are getting paid for....? Or is this what they learnt all their life from their family & teachers... Where is that education?

Education teaches us equality, not discrimination!

In School,  I have learnt “Sangati ka asar” and trust me I don’t wanna opt for this mindset!

3 months back... while working as usually... I heard a dialogue...And it affected me deeply... It was-

Guy A (to Guy B &  Guy C)-  yaar, XYZ ke paas lagta hai ek hi pair hai shoes ka, do hafte se dekh raha hu wohi pehen ke aa jata hai...

Guy B- Silent

Guy C- Silent (giggling)

I mean, really? Why can’t people stand against wrong... listening to wrong statements and not taking your stand is equally bad.... it’s actually an encouragement to the one doing it...

And listening to this I really felt like telling him "dude, you need a life" is this what people are supposed to talk and do in office... We live in a country like India where many people don't get clothes to wear, food to eat and we can still manage to talk like this.... then crib about better government... What govt. will do when people are carrying such mindset... Where is the education, actually?

For me I know I am least bothered about what I wear, forget about others... And I believe that’s what I have learnt throughout my life... To respect people for what they are as a human being and not on their appearances....

You can't judge a person on a pair of shoes...  I am a kinda girl who may repeat a pair of shoes/denims for 2-3-4 months if I love it without touching 50 more I may have... How can we be judgmental about such stupid things... And believe me after listening to this... I respect the guy who can carry himself in same pair for dunno how long, but, I somehow lost respect for the guy judging it...

Whatever we say about others speak a lot about ourselves, so, when we point a finger on someone we should first look at ourselves...

Now, if I go back to my college days... this was something I never felt and in fact, if this would have happened in college I am very much sure no one would have supported such loose remark... That’s what education really means...

Well, I dunno... May be this is how most of the people are in offices... May be!

There were many other things I miss about college like fighting for lunch box, bunking, planning businesses etc. :P things but luckily for me that's not specific  to college only... I was blessed with such people afterwards as well... ;-)

Although, life is perfectly great in terms of everything but sometimes I wish I could change certain things which I believe should be changed....

Anyhow, thank you God for such a brilliant and beautiful life with of course lots of troubles :P.. I love you for being there... Take care of my people... Amen! :*