Tuesday, November 1, 2016

Imtiaz Ali!


Well, this is my first ever post dedicated to an individual and that too not my favourite actor or singer or influential people in my life but to my favourite movie director- Imtiaz Ali.

I am a very filmy person and movies leave a great impact on me. This post might be a result of two disastrous movies I watched back to back this Saturday- “Ae Dil Hai Mushkil “and “Shivaay”.

To be very honest, I was super excited for ADHM and okay okay types for Shivaay but after watching them I was in a state of shock.

Every time I watch another disaster on big screen my desperation for Imtiaz’s next movie increases.

No matter what people say about Rockstar or Tamasha they were 2 of the finest Imi’s movies.

I loved Rockstar and still remember that very feel. I was on bed for 3 days... down with fever after watching that movie.

I don’t remember missing any of his movies till date (except Ahista Ahista) and I have always watched all of them on the release date...

I even remember the time in my life when each movie released-

Jab we met was released when I was in my graduation 3rd year, we bunked our classes on Friday and rushed for the movie.

Love Aaj Kal came when I was doing my MBA, again we bunked classes and watched it and this time I had my semester exam on the next day :)

Rockstar was released when I was stuck in a painful job in a start-up company, I still remember how I managed to reach for the movie at 7.30pm... pheww but yes, I watched it on the date of release :)

Highway released when I was working in a bank, I had a pretty good life and great people around. And Alia’s character was something I still relate to...

Tamasha is a recent one, I loved it too... Ranbir’s hidden personality of a traveller was something I can relate so well with and I loved the movie as whole.

Socha na tha is one movie watched much later after the release date but it’s very close to my heart and I watched it more than 15 times, even today whenever I feel low I pick up a Disney movie or “Socha na tha”

Imtiaz’s movies are brilliant and never fail to amaze me... I am waiting for his next one with Srk which is still out of news so far. 

And honestly, I have no interest in talking about ADHM or Shivaay, Lucky are those who didn’t get tickets or believed the reviews... Yes, the reviews are all true. Both movies are disasters.


Dear God, I still love you with all my shocked heart and will always do. Take care of my people. Muuaah :)

Tuesday, August 30, 2016

I am scared!


It's killing me and I need to write this.

I am an introvert. And I am very comfortable with the fact.

I rarely express, even if I really want to I can’t, I can’t open up easily... Sometimes, I find it really hard to say a “Hi” forget about initiating a conversation with people on my own... And honestly.. I have tried changing it, but I failed miserably.

I have my people with whom I can talk for hours but not with everyone.

Even though I am courageous, strong and blah blah I have fears and they are as deep as my strengths.

I don’t really know if it’s a blessing or a curse to be emotionally vulnerable and feel everything with a very high intensity... Whether I am happy or excited or grateful or sad.... I feel everything intensely... And, I love these feelings till the time they are positive but when negativity rules... God save the world!

My biggest fear is – “People I have feelings for... destructing themselves“

I have very few close friends and I deeply feel for them, they are like my family and I can’t see them in pain... We have been together through very bad times and I am really proud of it. They believed in me when I gave up on myself!

But, being vulnerable is a curse and is badly bothering me because I develop feelings for people who are not even my friends but are good at heart and I can’t see them in a destructive phase... I am stupid I know... I shouldn’t be thinking about it at all, but, yes, I am really stupid and I can’t stop thinking...

I am scared of liars and manipulative people, I have learned I can’t deal with them, so, now, I don’t think over it. Whenever I realize someone is being manipulative I simply cut myself and stop talking to that person. Maybe that’s my defense mechanism.

I am highly anxious right now and something is killing me deeply... each day... every moment and I can’t talk about it... 

God, please please make it a bad dream... I really need to wake up from this.. Please help me.. I promise I will be a good girl :(

Please God, show me the way out... And please take care of my people... Love you.

Thursday, July 21, 2016

Heart vs Brain- On midnight Snacking!

Now a days it's happening more frequently.. On almost everything there is a conflict going on between my stupid heart and stubborn brain... today.. it's on midnight snacking...

11pm

Heart- I am hungry!

Brain- Go, eat paneer.

Heart- I wanna have something unhealthy and delicious.. you know something like butter popcorn or creamy cheesy pasta or crunchy buttery cornflakes :D

Brain- shut up! It's 11pm.. it's not the right time.. have warm water.. and go to sleep.. .

Heart- dude, I could have asked for pina colada or beer or LIT... I am just asking for snacks.. that too light ones.

Brain- huh!

Heart- and I always consider your opinions.

Brain- As if you listen to me!

Heart- Whatever!

Brain- Go. Eat. Brush. Sleep. And don't irritate me. You have to get up early.

Heart- you are a sweetheart ;-)

And this is how I ended up stuffing myself with snacks... :P

Brain is so right sometimes. :P

Good night God... Muaah.