Missing link.....!!

Life is being different and not so brilliant lately… I thought I’ll give myself some more time to realize what’s going missing and why I am lacking that spark inside…. Everyday end up with a feeling of restlessness and dissatisfaction…. Leaving behind regret that one more day is wasted in running in a “rat race”…..

People might be happy living such life…. But I am not nor I wanna get used to it…. I can’t even abuse here huh… I have not seen such people in my life…. Hell man! So mean…. Forget about friendship they don’t even know the meaning of being human….. Their every act… every step is selfish….. This is not my world and I am dead sure! I know myself I can do much better things in life… I gave myself time and now I have realized….

I was so much happy being a student…. Dunno why I am here….. This is not something I wanted….. I can feel the suffocation inside… From past 3 days when I leave my office for home I feel like crying… I carry so much of hurt inside.... Something badly wounded.... As if my soul is tapped in a prison crying and craving for freedom…. I feel like am in a world of machines where everybody is just doing programmed things without any sense of emotion…. May be I am not liking anything nor I can cope up with it… that’s why its making me so negative….. I am workaholic….. I can do well in life… dunno why I am wasting myself….. the worst part is…. Hell yaar! I don’t wanna mention here…. Huh…. My blog is now more towards negativity…. Spiderman I & II are over its time for Spiderman III now…. Darkness all over my mind…. Driving me crazy…

I am angry with you God! Believe me I never expected this from you… If you are punishing me for my sins then I guess you should stop now its already too much!

Anyhow I cant stop loving you... And I am thankful for good things you gave me.... My people.... My family and friends..... And of course many other things too but please help me out.... You know I am in trouble.... I am waiting for your reply God..... Love ya...

Y Y Y :-(

During my MBA one of my lecturers told me…. You are going to start with a new life…. Your professional life… and I wanna tell you something important take it seriously and follow it “Don’t trust anybody” and there are three golden rules to succeed….

Rule#1- There are no friends at work place

Rule#2- There are no friends at workplace

Rule#3- Again there are no friends at workplace

Never forget these lines and all the best!

I agreed to him…. And started with my office….. Of course there are many things we need to learn practically no matter how many times we read them….. And we truly learn them after we fall down….

And my recent learning was to recall all these 3 important rules….… Of course I am a human being its not a sin if I trust people and try to help them out by thinking that they might not be so bad and cruel….. by thinking that they are so like me…. New to this world of professionalism….. quite innocent to play dirty politics…. And I was wrong… I was not shocked but I was upset….. I was not shocked coz I’ve heard that it will happen…. I was upset coz I never thought this will actually happen….

I have friends with work experience who share their professional life and politics in office…. And I never thought someday I’ll face it so practically…..

I am confused….. Whether to fight with God or to say thanks for teaching me this lesson…. People do bad things play dirty games…. But it hurts when someone you trusted does the same…
By the way….. Thank you God…. It was a good learning… I’ll safeguard myself from the next time…..

And one more thing God…. Why don’t you spare me from teaching at least one negative thing… why I need to learn all these painful things practically huh….

Anyhow! I love you… And thanks for being there for me…. I am glad at least you are there for me….. Please protect me from being bad(I mean more bad than what I am already ;))…. And give me power and patience to deal with such things around me….

Thank you…. Muah :) :)