Recover. Gain Strength. Rejuvenate. BOUNCE BACK!

I am trying to understand what is going on in my mind from past few weeks…. I am in a state of a strange dilemma… kinda suffering… trying super hard to come out of it!

I am being anti-social, destructive, restless, careless, unreasonable, emotionally unavailable, ignorant, cruel, rude and crazy!

It’s a part of me and I don’t mind being so…. But then… the changes in me are scaring me… It’s affecting my work out routine… my professional performance… personal life… and every damn thing!

Whenever, I find myself moving towards darkness and negativity I recall Spiderman III… Where I find negative powers all over me… Ruling my Heart & Mind!

As they say… Life is all about changes and phases…. This is also a phase.. The world is my playground… I am a player who is not in the best form at present but yes, I’ll certainly be fine….

Many good things did happen in last few days… I got my new car… And I am loving it… Though I still love my old one the most…. May be I am fond of the ‘first love thing’…. First job… first car… first home…. First…. Are always very close to my heart and soul…

I guess all I need is… a rejuvenating weekend outing... starting with a long long drive… without phone and net… all alone…. Isolation therapy is good at times…. I need to be alone…. Just me... my coffee… my camera… my running…. Myself!

I need to be with me… I feel I am running from myself… I don’t give a damn to people who don’t matter to me… but I am really concerned about certain people…. I think that’s what is bothering me like hell..

I wanna indulge in all good things where I can recharge myself back.... bring me back on track… I wanna listen to myself… Wanna spend time with my inner self… Together we’ll have good time… long walks, music, coffee, dark chocolates, photography… blogging, running.. And much more….

Dear God, please give me strength and guide me in the right direction…. I need you to be with me…. Your girl is missing you... Love you...

LIFE is like a Game of TETRIS….

Tetris is one of my all time favorites… I can play it for hours….. And I started playing it when I was in class 4th… Since then I am into it…. That was the time when me and brothers used to fight for “My turn to play” and used to wait eagerly for the next turn……

Life changed so are we…We don’t fight for Tetris anymore nor for TV…. There was a time when we used to fight for TV remote… They used to hate discovery and random cartoons and I used to hate 24X7 sports channels….. They are into sports since they were in 4th standard…..

But yes there was something common in us and that was sports…. We used to play together and we had common friends…. We used to play every sport…. Whether it be cricket or football or kho kho or hide ‘n’ seek or whatever…..

Ahh… feeling nostalgic again…. Everything just flashbacked from childhood….. :) That was certainly the best time of my life :D

Coming back to Tetris…. While playing Tetris I was comparing it with life (it’s my natural inbuilt tendency… I just can’t stop thinking :P)…. Life and Tetris are quite similar… For instance in Tetris random blocks keeps on coming and we adjust them in our best way we can just like Life where different situations keeps on coming and we handle them in our best possible manner…. And just like the shapes of blocks the situations are also random and different in nature and design with their distinctive features and we need to fit/solve them accordingly…. When we adjust the blocks in the best manner we get extra points and in life we get best of results…. One more thing is you can never predict which block will be next or after that… it’s random without our will sometimes it is what we were looking for sometimes it’s not….. Same goes for life too…. We can’t predict what is coming our way next nor it’s always our wish but then life is a game we need to play in a best manner we can….. Sometimes things get messed up too and they can be resolved on playing well further… Mistakes teaches us and we can always try our best not to repeat them….. :D

Life is a well designed game by God…. And we all get an equal chance to play…. Now it’s up to an individual how to manage it…. yes, Destiny plays its role and so do Luck but then they are not the ONLY THING!

Well this was what I‘ve felt and few other things too but I guess this was what I wanted to write :D….. I love playing Tetris........ ;)

And life…. It’s my favorite GAME :D :D

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P.S.: I know life is much more than just a Tetris game... but this was just a comparison... I love finding life in everthing I love to do :)