Life is being different and not so brilliant lately… I thought I’ll give myself some more time to realize what’s going missing and why I am lacking that spark inside…. Everyday end up with a feeling of restlessness and dissatisfaction…. Leaving behind regret that one more day is wasted in running in a “rat race”…..People might be happy living such life…. But I am not nor I wanna get used to it…. I can’t even abuse here huh… I have not seen such people in my life…. Hell man! So mean…. Forget about friendship they don’t even know the meaning of being human….. Their every act… every step is selfish….. This is not my world and I am dead sure! I know myself I can do much better things in life… I gave myself time and now I have realized….
I was so much happy being a student…. Dunno why I am here….. This is not something I wanted….. I can feel the suffocation inside… From past 3 days when I leave my office for home I feel like crying… I carry so much of hurt inside.... Something badly wounded.... As if my soul is tapped in a prison crying and craving for freedom…. I feel like am in a world of machines where everybody is just doing programmed things without any sense of emotion…. May be I am not liking anything nor I can cope up with it… that’s why its making me so negative….. I am workaholic….. I can do well in life… dunno why I am wasting myself….. the worst part is…. Hell yaar! I don’t wanna mention here…. Huh…. My blog is now more towards negativity…. Spiderman I & II are over its time for Spiderman III now…. Darkness all over my mind…. Driving me crazy…
I am angry with you God! Believe me I never expected this from you… If you are punishing me for my sins then I guess you should stop now its already too much!
Anyhow I cant stop loving you... And I am thankful for good things you gave me.... My people.... My family and friends..... And of course many other things too but please help me out.... You know I am in trouble.... I am waiting for your reply God..... Love ya...
