Weird Me! :P

I love winters… I even love summers…. But monsoons drive me super crazy.. :-))

God, I know you made rains to take some kinda revenge from me…. I don’t feel like doing anything on a rainy day... I just feel like getting drenched in the pouring water from sky… :P

Life is indeed good… And monsoon is truly beautiful…

Half of my team is in Goa from office… My office rewarded last year’s performers by a sponsored trip to Goa… Lucky people… I m here dreaming of it… dyinnggggg to go…. :-(

Anyways, there was a guy in my team not interested in going I counseled him that he should go… After all Goa is religious place when alcohol is your religion.. Convincing somebody to go Goa... that too when it’s FREE of cost... is a Godly work…  :P

Ahhh Goa, even the thought induces excitement inside me… :-D

I don’t really appreciate discussing about work after work hours, but we can discuss workplace of course… while driving today my brain was busy thinking.. as usual… sometimes, I feel it also runs on diesel :P

So, I was thinking why professionalism and friendship can’t go hand in hand… few days back when I got this team to work with… I had nice terms with every one… We used to share lunchbox, laughs and general talks apart from work… But, as soon as number pressure started building up… that so called ‘good terms’ changed in to professionalism… of course, work is the priority and if the team I got will not work from where will I meet my numbers…

Sometimes we need to choose, we intentionally murder one relation to survive the other one…  at times without our will…! :-(

I very strongly believe that I am a feeling less, cold blooded, devilish girl… but I hate it when emotions bother me… they should not be a part of me at all… They only create barriers in life… I hate this part of me… Emotions are like an injured body part… they don’t leave you but compel you  to bear the extreme pain and live with it…

But I hate how strongly and extremely I think about things… God, you made me a weird person! :P

Dear God, If you call this growing up… I am not really having fun in it… After all life is all about having fun :-))))… So, you kindly alter it and make it interesting and happening for your favorite girl…  :-)

I am willing to write a lot…. About every damn thing… My yesterday’s trip to Manesar…. My PC trouble… My SALE plan…. Brothers’ Birthday planning and what not…. Bhai log’s birthday is the topmost priority as of now… I wanna make it grand this time… beyond their imagination… :D Lets see… lets see…

Weekend is also near… Another interesting movie coming up… yayy! :-))), also, I wanna go for photography… I wanna click… Just need a push… May be a company would do…  I am way too lazy…. :-) :-)

God, I love you for being there for me…. Just stand by me.. Give me strength to carry on… And take care of my people...! Muuaaaah :-) :-)

Learn. Swim. Move!

Its my longing desire now to learn swimming... I dream of it every night in my sleep... I dream of it with open eyes...

Yes, i am making an effort too to begin with it... But I m so much into the thought that I have started relating swimming to everything else I do..

For say my job.. I have recently joined this new organisation which is a different industry... I am now in Banking from a Media background... So, things are very different here...

I have always heard people saying banking is very difficult and boring... Its toughest place to work for a sales person... Well, no comments on their mindset.. But, I believe for a person who loves to work hard, earn money and grow professionally nothing is better than banking.. Its no jazz.. No cloud.. No fooling around... Its a REAL GROUND!

Now, since my mind is preoccupied with swimming and  new work place I tend to link them both.. :-)
I really visualize a pool where i m thrown to learn swimming and all my colleagues are expert swimmers enjoying the dive.. Some are comparatively new but since they are from banking industry they know how to swim... For them only this pool is new.. But for me I don't know how to swim...

Now, the challenge is training... Since, at mid senior level 98% of new joinees come from banking industry only.. The training is also imparted by keeping that in mind... It is similar to my MBA course where I was from B.Sc background and accounts & economics were taught by keeping in mind the commerce background people.. It becomes a real struggle when you have to learn from very basics where experts are competing with you.. 
Now, similarly, I have been given instructions here too but not taught practically how to swim.. All i m trying to do it disturbing every swimmer crossing around to learn the technique where they all are very busy in focusing on their task... No one is supposed to bother why i have got so many questions regarding every new thing... May be because i need to know it.. Why & how its happening... I am moving my myself in the pool but techniques are something I still need to learn & master.. Its about survival of the fittest!

Pheww.. Lets see.. Where will this take me.. I m just trying to be positive... :-)

God, no one understands better than you what I m into at this moment.. Please give me courage... I have my faith on you.. And take care of my people... Love you :-) muuaaah..

Working Weekend!

“Oh No! Another working weekend”

This is one thought which usually never bother me… Being a workaholic… I love working… But, I guess after 20 days of work without a single break, I now understand my mom’s words- “Beta, rest bhi toh zaroori hai”… when the tiredness is ruling all over me…

I so wish companies should understand this… On the other hand I feel, Indian companies & Indian people will never understand the concept of ‘rejuvenation’…  Where people are normal human bodies that needs rest physically as well as mentally…

Looking back, professionally, 

I was picked from campus by my first organization, where I used to work 365 days round the clock…. But, then, I had flexibility of taking rest…. My boss was considerate enough to give me that liberty of taking a break… Still, life was tough... without Saturdays off and unofficially working Sundays…. My social life was limited only inside office…I still loved it... 

My second job was a bit stable…. Fix 6 days working, sometimes Sundays too… very fix timings…. But nightmares should not be recalled… :P

Coming on to my present job… I like the place where I work… I like my work… I like the culture… though there are always certain positives and negatives about every place…. But *touchwood* it’s more of positives there… The only thing I hate the most is working weekends without any comp off….

I dunno why companies don’t understand making employees work for 2 weeks without a break will never improve their business or performance instead it will further result in slow and poor results with employee dissatisfaction and higher attrition rate… A happy employee can work more efficiently, and one day off in a week is everyone's right..

I m so tired… given a day off, I’ll only sleep for 20-25 hours… My mind is tired… My routine is all disturbed... My personal tasks which I try to finish after office are still half pending… My family needs my time, every second day my mom or my bhai asks “Tu kab free hogi, kab we can go for this or that” :-(…. I haven’t met my friends from long time, usually when they ask “Are you free on sat/sun”…. My reply is “Event hai” … And for God, you know better... what not….

I need sleep... I never thought I'll say it so publicly but yes, I need SLEEP! I need REJUVENATION, a short break.. A small escape to an isolated place... :-(

Dear God, lets catch up soon someday... After office of course! Love you.. ;-)

P.S.- This post was purely written with a Saturday morning mindset, with a ‘working weekend ahead'  feel!

Recover. Gain Strength. Rejuvenate. BOUNCE BACK!

I am trying to understand what is going on in my mind from past few weeks…. I am in a state of a strange dilemma… kinda suffering… trying super hard to come out of it!

I am being anti-social, destructive, restless, careless, unreasonable, emotionally unavailable, ignorant, cruel, rude and crazy!

It’s a part of me and I don’t mind being so…. But then… the changes in me are scaring me… It’s affecting my work out routine… my professional performance… personal life… and every damn thing!

Whenever, I find myself moving towards darkness and negativity I recall Spiderman III… Where I find negative powers all over me… Ruling my Heart & Mind!

As they say… Life is all about changes and phases…. This is also a phase.. The world is my playground… I am a player who is not in the best form at present but yes, I’ll certainly be fine….

Many good things did happen in last few days… I got my new car… And I am loving it… Though I still love my old one the most…. May be I am fond of the ‘first love thing’…. First job… first car… first home…. First…. Are always very close to my heart and soul…

I guess all I need is… a rejuvenating weekend outing... starting with a long long drive… without phone and net… all alone…. Isolation therapy is good at times…. I need to be alone…. Just me... my coffee… my camera… my running…. Myself!

I need to be with me… I feel I am running from myself… I don’t give a damn to people who don’t matter to me… but I am really concerned about certain people…. I think that’s what is bothering me like hell..

I wanna indulge in all good things where I can recharge myself back.... bring me back on track… I wanna listen to myself… Wanna spend time with my inner self… Together we’ll have good time… long walks, music, coffee, dark chocolates, photography… blogging, running.. And much more….

Dear God, please give me strength and guide me in the right direction…. I need you to be with me…. Your girl is missing you... Love you...

Another Thursday!

Today was my 4^th working day without my car... And even today I dint get it back…. Of course! I am not liking it….!

It’s not very easy every time though…. But, I Love being positive… :)

Anyhow, I dunno how to react on it…. But recently I have noticed something very strange…. From past 7-8 times I am experiencing very bad Thursdays…

I seriously don’t know the reason behind it… All I know is… Thursdays are disastrous for me and I really pray to go invisible from this earth for this one day or God just make this day go disappear from the week… It’s so so bad…

Every Thursday morning I tell myself…. “come on… It’s a new day, It will be good” but the day ends on a very depressing note….

I still believe if it happens there must be some reason behind it….

I have also noticed, the problem starting with Thursday usually ends by the next Thursday because the next one comes with a new disaster… Eeeeew, I am hating it, simply.

I m not being superstitious though…. Even I ignored this thing for quite some time…. But when things went extremely idiotic… I was compelled to notice... Moreover, I have this bug of thinking over one thing for hours, days, months or even years (very rarely though)!

Even today was super bad… I so wish to hide underground or just disappear for this one day… I desperately ask God to put an end to the day at every single second of my Thursday….

Anyways, I’ll try to sleep now… My Espresso usually doesn’t work on my sleep… but since, it’s Thursday and I wanna end it early…. My coffee effect might work :P

God, I really wanna fight with you today… seriously… Let’s take it offline…. Good night!

DAY 1: Work without my Car!

Before beginning with the post I would to like to mention that here the work is “SALES” so when I say work without a car… It means something genuinely uncomfortable!

I guess, I’ll start with how I m struck in this situation… well…. It all happened on a very pleasant day… the day I love the most ‘FRIDAY’…  A Friday afternoon.

As usual, I was driving my car… going for a meeting…. happily singing a song…. On a crowd less road… where I met an accident... It wasn’t just any simple hit it was kinda major…. A bikewala hit my car badly without seeing the indicator due to which he got injured and I ended up losing one door of my car and the other door was damaged…

Anyways, my primary concern was that guy who was bleeding…  As that was not the point to argue on whose fault it was… I took him to the hospital and dropped him back…. After that my concern was my car… It was a major loss so I decided to call up insurance guy to guide me how to go about it… He told me a long process which I decided to follow…

My Saturday went in searching for a workshop where I can give my car and get it repaired at earliest… as well as in fewer outflows of cash…. Finally, my search ended on a workshop in Vasant Kunj where I decided to give my car and the workshop guy ensured me its return in 4 days i.e., by Thursday most probably…

Phewww! Long story it was… Anyways, now I was bothered about my work… Being in sales it’s very difficult to go without a car… Sunday I was mostly sleeping and doing tp… By the end of the day I convinced myself that “It’s gonna be an adventure to be without a car… I’ll explore the city in public transport once again after 2 years… yayy!” :P

Though from inside I was saying “it won’t be that bad... after all people do live without a car”….

Ah… Started Monday… I luckily got lift till office with a colleague of mine who stays in South Delhi… Then comes the meetings part…. I was lucky as I had just one meeting today… that too I managed in metro…

After years, I travelled in Metro…. It was not really a bad experience… Honestly speaking… sometimes it’s required to come out of your comfort zone and work like mostly people do… Well, yes, I lack patience and I hate public transport but it’s all because I always had a choice to avoid it… today, I had no choice so I used it… It wasn’t actually my wish though… :P

I spent around 4 hrs in just one meeting due to this public transport thing… I am sure with car it’s just a matter of 2.5 hrs at max… Life can’t be same every time…

But… God, seriously yaa… Thank You so much for being there for me… Good and bad days do come but it’s all required at times… It only makes us versatile and strong…. And I am happy, Really… So don’t worry.. ;-)

Just take care of my people…. Love you… Muaah! :-))

Loving My Life! :-)

I dunno what really compelled me to write this post but anyways I am glad to be back here...

Life is being dynamic and eventful... Till last year I used to say I am not happy with my Job because of whatever reasons... I also had a fear in my mind that leaving it might leave me with regrets as the future is always uncertain... But honestly, I am proud to say that it was my best decision of the year to resign from that place.

As far as my present is concerned, touch-wood, I am happy :-)

Yes, life is full of ups and downs, successes and failures... surrounded by people who make you or break you.... Politics.... dirty games and so on.. But, whatever it may be I believe everything in life happens for a reason... Its good or bad is decided by the outlook we carry... 

It will be unfair if I'll say- I hate it when people around me play unfair games and make my life even more complicated.... I wish I could punch them hard on their face..

I would rather say- Yes, I do hate the dirt around but I am learning to fight for it... As life can not be a piece of cake every time, so meeting such people prepares me to fight for what is right and enable me to learn more about humans. (Of course, I'll always be an Anthropologist) ;-)

Well, no regrets from life... Although, I do miss my first job a lot... May be because I had real good people around me whom I'll cherish for the rest of my life... And yes, it was like my first love.. And deserves a special corner in my heart..

New in life is nothing much.... Or I would say so much that I am unable to gather it and jot it down.. ;-)

I keep meeting new people daily.. And like it... I am still a kid without any change so far in my thought processes... So, that ways I do face problems... Specially by trusting wrong people most of the times.. but that is again an integral part of life.. So, no complaints.

Recently, I spent hell lot of money on shopping... I purchased everything- clothes, shoes, bags, accessories, gifts and so on.... Last year, I used to feel that some part of me was not living or rather say was dead/dormant... Now, I feel... I can sense it... I am the same Deepika that I used be 2 years ago... :D

I feel things, good and bad... I m loving shopping again...  I love meeting my old pals.... Hanging out... I can feel feelings... praise music... appreciate beauty... And, I watch every interesting movie on its release weekend without a fail... I cherish my life... I love being busy... I love myself... I love my people.. I am in love with my life....

The only thing drastically changed is my frequency of writing blogs.. Many times I start with something then leave it in-between... May be I am too confused what all to write and what not....
But.. I'll try to write more as it helps me a lot personally to figure out what I am feeling... I can express well in words... in my mind emotions and thoughts are very vague and random... I can compile them in a post and analyse... :))

I'll end it here now, once again.. Thank You dear God... for everything you gave me... forgive me for the bad things I do intentionally/unintentionally.... I'll always be your favorite kid who will never do any wrong to anyone knowingly.. Please be there on my side and take care of my loved ones... Love you.. Muaah.. :-)

I am BACK!! :-)

Yayy!! I am back... Life is being great and eventful... Year started on a brilliant note when one good day I decided to resign from my bloody job! And that good day was in first week on January... ;-)

Well.. I know many of us think and just think about doing the same but they bear with the situations till the time they can... And I also stretched it till the time I could have... Then I decided to fight for myself and try to be in better place....

Phewww.... After resign, I felt like a free bird... repaired myself and gained back my self confidence... After resting for 2-3 days I started my real job! That was looking for a good place to work with interesting work.. 

In quest for the same I tried various ways.. I updated my CV on various job portals... Personally posted CV in the career section of good companies where I was interested and used Linkedin wisely.... All these efforts were not in vain.... After thoughtful consideration, I gave 4 interviews and after some wait I am really proud to say that I was selected in all 4... :D this boosted my confidence level even more.... After analyzing all the options I picked up a job and finally joined it in February second week...

Well... I am glad today that I decided to fight for better life... And today I feel good... I feel one should not waste time in doing something they don't like... We got one life... We have all the right to choose what to do... I understand although sometimes we are struck in certain situations which compel us to be in places we never intended to be... But honestly, one should always fight for what they deserve! As we never know where may God listen to us and change things for betterment...

Thank you once again God... I love you.... Thank you again for making me feel blessed again :D Muaah.. As expected... the time of resignation shocked me I saw the most dirtiest faces I ever imagined... Lets not spoil Pearl by writing about all that nonsense... ;-)

Philosophy of First job!

I have recently started with my work…. Few months back … 5 months to be precise….. Every day its like a new lesson…. Sometimes it hurts… Sometimes it frustrates… Sometimes it gives happiness….

Usually your first job is like your first love…. It has a lot to teach you….. You have many expectations…. And it’s a learning for lifetime….. You make mistakes and you learn from them…. At times you act stupid and then from the next time you feel prepared to face the similar situation with better understanding….

I wanted to write so much that I was confused about the title of my post… I have started driving recently…. And I am in love…. Yea… I am too possessive about my car and truly in love with it….. I usually drive about 80-100 kms daily which is bit tiring….. but I feel blissful unless I am struck in a traffic jam…. :)….. he he….. It really feels great….. it feels like living a cartoon movie life….. Where I go on an adventure daily…. Search new routes and reach my destination….. Just like a treasure hunt episode….. :P…. I remember once I lost my way…. And reached a no man’s land….. No humans….. no trees…. No buildings….. just a piece of an empty land….. I was feeling hungry so I decided to have my lunch there….. I stopped my car there and had my food… Amazing date with my car :P….. I almost every second day go on such adventures…. :D…. but that was worth remembering…..

Apart from my driving adventures….. I keep on meeting new people daily….. Some good some not so good…. My office people are experienced, mature and self indulged….. Unlike me! of course I am self indulged but not experienced nor mature ;)

I am trying my level best to start with my work out routine again….. But my job is not allowing me to do so….. but I guess I’ll find out a solution for this…….

There are so many things I need to change… I really wish I could mention here but I can’t….. Let’s see….. Work is in progress….. I am waiting with my fingers crossed…. I’ll try to write more often….. :)…. This is something I always love to do….. :D

Will come up soon with the updates….. :D

Thank you God for being there for me…. Just take care of my loved ones…. Love ya…. Muaah… :D

PLAY WELL baby…. Life is a crazy game!

Another Sunday morning is here after a hectic week of 6 working days and with almost 10-11 hours of daily work… But yes… first and foremost…. No complaints ;-)

I just realized that I didn’t write anything after I started with my work…. So I thought of jotting it down today :-)

People say it’s boring when you start with your work life…. I don’t agree with them… It’s all fun for me…. Back office sitting job might be boring but mine is not back office one… yes I feel irritated when I am required to sit on one seat for more than 30-40mins…

The work culture here is good… good people…. Work is exciting…. And I have professionally hosted an event for the first time not for my office though… Which I’ll be continuing in future as well.. :D

Life is being crazy… life is being good…. Yes, low moments and high moments are there but that’s all acceptable and usual part of life… :-)

I dunno why everybody around me suggesting me to leave this job… other than my office people… :-( they say ‘sales job’ is difficult…. But thats not true… Yea initial efforts are required to settled down and make your own space but after that it’s not something very tough… Other thing is what you offering to people….

Rest is up to God…. Dunno what future is holding for me….

For now all is WELL…. With bit of disappointments, lots of excitement, loads of smiles, fun…. But I still feel something is missing… I dunno what…. Anyways…. Life is good… Life is beautiful…

Thank you God…. Please be by my side…. Always…. Love you.. :D

"Drinking Habits Among youngsters" A SURVEY....

Last weekend I worked for a Market Research Company in which I had to conduct a small survey and had to collect Interviews of 175 youngsters ranging between 21-35 years of age….. Of course a person aged 35 is not a youngster but that was the upper limit.
When I first read the requirement notice by the company, it was clearly mentioned that they require 3 people for the survey… I thought it’s very easy and we two friends in a team will do the entire thing in one day…. We had a deadline…. Till Sunday 3pm we had to submit the data….
We approached the person concerned and got to know that we had to go through a short briefing before the survey…. We went for briefing and came to know that we had to visit different corners of Delhi in order to collect the data and that’s so through personal interviews…. Different corners meant different universities in Delhi which are poles apart… I sometimes wonder how I met someone so CRAZY like me… And we enthusiastically accepted the work…. Hell yeeah.... ENTHUSIASTICALLY…. Ha ha
It started, Saturday morning…. We hired a cab (of course we were paid well for that) and started with our work… We thought of starting with South Delhi… Since its admission season it was difficult to find people above 21 years of age 70% were ranging between 17-20… But then work is work….
Started with Venky college…. Came across many people… here i am elaborating a few…. One guy was there for his younger brother’s admission I interviewed him (main highlights):

Me: what comes to your mind when you hear the word “liquor”?
He: (with a smile on his face and sparkle in his eyes) Liquor… Whiskey…. Where is the bottle… it excites me
(his expression was loud enough to say it all)
Me: your perception/opinion about Liquor?
He: Well, in my opinion it’s one of the best creation of Man and everyone must drink it…..
(and before I could say anything) it should be neat, on the rocks (lots of ice), a girl to serve it…
Me: (Before he could continue I prompted) you are done FULL STOP. Thank you. (After a pause) You are here for your brother’s admission, right? Does he know your views and all about liquor…?
He: NOOOOO……. He doesn't know anything !!
Me: :P

I met girls too asked them the same set of Questions…. I am glad to say at least girls are more sensible and intelligent when it comes to “Liquor”... they too drink (some of them) but wisely…. Unlike guys who are desperate every now and then to grab a bottle :P
I collected data from venky and headed towards another college….. I am skipping ARSD…. Lets talk about MLNC, there I entered in one classroom where admission was going on…. And most of the people were busy filling forms… I approached a guy from North east (first target in that college and the first and last one who rejected to give interview :P)

Me: (Smiling face :P) Hello… You are here for the admission, Right?
He: (Looked at me as if am an Alien, speaking Chinese :P)
Me: Can I take your two minutes if you don’t mind?
He: NO!

I studied with a North Eastern guy in my graduation, I understand... he had no knowledge of hindi, so I consider all north easties as Zero in Hindi…(though few can speak very well in Hindi)…. But Hello… I was talking English dude…. Gemme a break….!!
I walked straight out of the class…. Was sitting alone on the stairs of the college and was just observing people moving here and there with no interest in asking any further Q to anyone… A guy approached

He: Hi, are you here for admission?
Me: No.
He: For Mark sheet?
Me: No
He: Actually, i saw that you are sitting here alone since quite sometime. May I help you, I am a final year student Political science, I am here to help students coming for admission.
Me: I explained the whole thing...….
He: Iam Faiz, you can take my interview
(I conducted his interview and we started chit chatting)
He: I cleared TOEFL and am going to Germany after my Exams
Me: that’s good
(We continued to talk for some more time)
He: how many more interviews you need?
Me: 20 more from here
He: Only? Just gemme sometime and be here
Me: okay!!

After sometime I was surrounded by guys too happy to give their interview :D
It wasn’t difficult at all…. All credit goes to Faiz….
I thanked him and moved to North campus, A place where I spent 3 most precious years of my life….. A place which makes me nostalgic everytime i go there............

I first headed towards my college, Hansraj, conducted few interviews, roamed in college and went to my science faculty…. Got few people for interview and in the end I moved to the Arts faculty, and there I met an interesting personality… His name was Varun
My team mate approached their group (2 guys and 1 girl)
He started with the interview of one guy, I with the other

Me: (After filling the details) first thing comes to your mind when you hear the word “Liquor”?
(Sorry but I don’t remember precisely what he replied)
After few usual survey questions… He started with his Questions,
He: what are you doing? Is this your job?
Me: Nopes, m a student it’s some research work m doing for experience
He: studying what?
Me: MBA
He: I am also a MBA graduate from Amity. Which semester and college?
Me: IIIrd (gemme a break, i am the one who is supposed to asked Qs not u :P)
He: what’s your name?
Me: Deepika
He: full name
Me: Deepika Gupta
He: Delhiite?
Me: yess, k tel me which of the following drinks do you consume? (i had a list of drinks)
He: I have tried all…. Do you drink? (Again his Qs started)
Me: NO
He: Seriously? Actually I also don’t drink….. actually in past 6 months since I joined office….. blah blah
Me: :P….. it’s okay!! Don’t worry, your name is not going to be there in the magazine it’s a general survey
He: I don’t care even if it’s gonna be there
Me: Thank you.

He was the last interview of that day…. Pheww!!! Hell it was Tiring….
After that we submitted the data collected….
Well, I dunno when the data analysis will be out… What I can say is… guys are more into drinking…. Than girls…. They love Whiskey(most), beer and Vodka…. Whereas most preferred drink among girls is Vodka…
My last weekend was good… I have already started looking for work for this weekend and further weekends… I can’t sit idle for two complete days… As far as hanging out, chilling is concerned… I do it daily…. Remember, m still in college and I still have an option of bunking ;))
Life Rocks!!!!!! \m/ :D :D