Sometimes, in fact most of the times, I really find myself
paralysed when its about expressing anything... I am really a difficult human
being and I hate myself for being so...
I try so hard at times to say or do certain things which I just
can’t do... It’s like an injury or a disability... disability of expressing me
to the people who matter the most... :-(
Yesterday, I went to my college campus with an old friend of
mine... It sounds funny but yes, I am in search of my self... What I was...
what I am.... what happened... what changed.... and what not... I know I am
crazily weird at times but that’s ok... I should like myself... the way I am...
Rest, doesn’t really matter! :P
So, since I was going through this emotional turmoil... And
was trying to figure out what actually is wrong with me I decided to look back....
back in time where I was truly happy... I know I was a very different
individual at that point of time but, I need to understand me.... discover more
of myself...
I decided to go back to my campus... I miss my college
days... So, I along with my friend decided to live one day... the way we used
to live 7 years back...
I wore my sports shoes, took my fone, some cash in pocket
(like I used to do in college) and took metro for my campus... I reached there
by 10.30am... Met my friend there and we started walking towards our breakfast
junction.... On the way, I was searching for “bhelpuri wale uncle”...
He wasn’t there so I asked another vendor standing there about him; I got to
know that he comes around 1pm... I was happy to know he is all well...
We reached our old adda for breakfast and asked for “meetha
samosa” the guy said it was out of stock and they’ll be making it soon again...
We ordered “aloo samosa”, tea & my black coffee... finished it and proceeded...
On the way, we ate our desi burger from a thela...
And continued walking towards a decent place to sit... we went to our
old place where we used to eat... but it was locked... We visited our
department in Science faculty... And finally, we decided to sit inside the law
faculty campus... We sat there and talked for almost 2 hours... About how life
changed, our learnings from job life and so on...
We realized it was 1pm.... bhelpuri time.... So, we
started walking... I saw uncle, he was looking old and weak.... He recognised
me instantly... I wanted to ask him for photo but somehow, I find it impossible
to say things which I should... We ate bhelpuri... All the while, I was
thinking of asking uncle for a picture but I was not able to... while leaving...
I clicked his picture where he was surrounded by people...
We decided to go to our college and sit there... We went to our
college canteen and ate our favourite “triangle wala dosa” with flavoured milk...
We then decided to sit there for some time... Again we continued sharing about
life and happenings and we realised it was 4.30pm...
We headed towards our favourite “Pastry shop” and ordered our
favourite “Rum ball”... finished it and decided to take a round of “Kamla Nagar
Market”... It was truly nostalgic... though it changed a lot in 7 years... I
purchased “Anklets” for my Goa collection.... While leaving market we saw “Giani’s”
and ate ice-cream...
My friend said, “Main ja raha hun meethe samose khaane, tera
kya plan hai” it was so like him... And I replied, “mera bhi yehi plan hai” and
we started walking towards our destination.... We ate our “Meethe Samose” and
it was 6pm...
We decided to leave for home.... So, we waved hands and took
our respective metros...
I luckily got seat in metro and as usual I was lost in my
thoughts... And realised I reached my destination...
I was a great day indeed... I was not carrying my camera so I
clicked few pics from my fone which I am going to share... Each one with a
story to tell....
Thank you God, once again for everything... Love you! Bless
my people... :-)
