Slow Life.

I want a slow Life in a small town!

So much changes with time, at one point of time, all I wanted was a successful career, money, luxury, comfort, of course, along with my people. Ten years back, my dreams were different from what they are today. My dream house used to be  a lavish one in a metro city with every comfort inside and even the comforts were different from what they are now. And, I have always believed I will earn it. 

And today, the only thing similar from my previous dream is my people, everything else changed. I no more want a huge amount of money or a super career or a luxurious lifestyle or a very big house in a crowded city. All I need is a peace of mind, a slow life in a small city, peaceful evenings with my loved ones and good food on the table. 

I am back to square one, where, I again want a small house on the green hills with a small river flowing around, with everything I need to survive, clean air, clean water, clean food and a fireplace to keep me warm in winters. Less noise, more smiles and no mobiles.

I crave for stress free weekends at home, sipping my coffee in peace, reading a book, cooking in my free time for my people. Sleeping till late, playing a sport, listening to old music, doing something creative with calmness around. Travelling often.

A place away from maddening crowd. 

I don't want a social life where I have 500 friends on Facebook, 300 followers on Instagram and hollowness inside. Wishing festivals to hundreds of people on WhatsApp and not feeling anything! 

I want to be with few people I truly care about.

Aah I was watching 'DDLJ' the other day, what a life it was without mobile phones, when everything was real. Emotions were real, people used to make effort to meet, talk and see each other. So complicated yet so sorted!

Irony is, by default I belong to that Era, I have seen that life and I can compare it. And I know I can't go back there, even when I know it was so much better.

Mobile phones with internet are a curse, I feel I am never free. I am always followed, entangled in chains everywhere. On every damn social media if you are online, you are visible to everybody and you are bound to reply. I hate being rude and ignorant and I don't want to be there. 

Sometimes, I really wish to run away from it. 

Dear God, I won't ask for anything from you! Just take care of my people. And I Love You.

For old times' sake! :)

Sometimes, in fact most of the times, I really find myself paralysed when its about expressing anything... I am really a difficult human being and I hate myself for being so...

I try so hard at times to say or do certain things which I just can’t do... It’s like an injury or a disability... disability of expressing me to the people who matter the most... :-(

Yesterday, I went to my college campus with an old friend of mine... It sounds funny but yes, I am in search of my self... What I was... what I am.... what happened... what changed.... and what not... I know I am crazily weird at times but that’s ok... I should like myself... the way I am... Rest, doesn’t really matter! :P

So, since I was going through this emotional turmoil... And was trying to figure out what actually is wrong with me I decided to look back.... back in time where I was truly happy... I know I was a very different individual at that point of time but, I need to understand me.... discover more of myself...

I decided to go back to my campus... I miss my college days... So, I along with my friend decided to live one day... the way we used to live 7 years back...

I wore my sports shoes, took my fone, some cash in pocket (like I used to do in college) and took metro for my campus... I reached there by 10.30am... Met my friend there and we started walking towards our breakfast junction.... On the way, I was searching for “bhelpuri wale uncle”... He wasn’t there so I asked another vendor standing there about him; I got to know that he comes around 1pm... I was happy to know he is all well...

We reached our old adda for breakfast and asked for “meetha samosa” the guy said it was out of stock and they’ll be making it soon again... We ordered “aloo samosa”, tea & my black coffee... finished it and proceeded...

On the way, we ate our desi burger from a thela... And continued walking towards a decent place to sit... we went to our old place where we used to eat... but it was locked... We visited our department in Science faculty... And finally, we decided to sit inside the law faculty campus... We sat there and talked for almost 2 hours... About how life changed, our learnings from job life and so on...

We realized it was 1pm.... bhelpuri time.... So, we started walking... I saw uncle, he was looking old and weak.... He recognised me instantly... I wanted to ask him for photo but somehow, I find it impossible to say things which I should... We ate bhelpuri... All the while, I was thinking of asking uncle for a picture but I was not able to... while leaving... I clicked his picture where he was surrounded by people...

We decided to go to our college and sit there... We went to our college canteen and ate our favourite “triangle wala dosa” with flavoured milk... We then decided to sit there for some time... Again we continued sharing about life and happenings and we realised it was 4.30pm...

We headed towards our favourite “Pastry shop” and ordered our favourite “Rum ball”... finished it and decided to take a round of “Kamla Nagar Market”... It was truly nostalgic... though it changed a lot in 7 years... I purchased “Anklets” for my Goa collection.... While leaving market we saw “Giani’s” and ate ice-cream...

My friend said, “Main ja raha hun meethe samose khaane, tera kya plan hai” it was so like him... And I replied, “mera bhi yehi plan hai” and we started walking towards our destination.... We ate our “Meethe Samose” and it was 6pm...

We decided to leave for home.... So, we waved hands and took our respective metros...

I luckily got seat in metro and as usual I was lost in my thoughts... And realised I reached my destination...

I was a great day indeed... I was not carrying my camera so I clicked few pics from my fone which I am going to share... Each one with a story to tell....

Thank you God, once again for everything... Love you! Bless my people... :-)