Recover. Gain Strength. Rejuvenate. BOUNCE BACK!

I am trying to understand what is going on in my mind from past few weeks…. I am in a state of a strange dilemma… kinda suffering… trying super hard to come out of it!

I am being anti-social, destructive, restless, careless, unreasonable, emotionally unavailable, ignorant, cruel, rude and crazy!

It’s a part of me and I don’t mind being so…. But then… the changes in me are scaring me… It’s affecting my work out routine… my professional performance… personal life… and every damn thing!

Whenever, I find myself moving towards darkness and negativity I recall Spiderman III… Where I find negative powers all over me… Ruling my Heart & Mind!

As they say… Life is all about changes and phases…. This is also a phase.. The world is my playground… I am a player who is not in the best form at present but yes, I’ll certainly be fine….

Many good things did happen in last few days… I got my new car… And I am loving it… Though I still love my old one the most…. May be I am fond of the ‘first love thing’…. First job… first car… first home…. First…. Are always very close to my heart and soul…

I guess all I need is… a rejuvenating weekend outing... starting with a long long drive… without phone and net… all alone…. Isolation therapy is good at times…. I need to be alone…. Just me... my coffee… my camera… my running…. Myself!

I need to be with me… I feel I am running from myself… I don’t give a damn to people who don’t matter to me… but I am really concerned about certain people…. I think that’s what is bothering me like hell..

I wanna indulge in all good things where I can recharge myself back.... bring me back on track… I wanna listen to myself… Wanna spend time with my inner self… Together we’ll have good time… long walks, music, coffee, dark chocolates, photography… blogging, running.. And much more….

Dear God, please give me strength and guide me in the right direction…. I need you to be with me…. Your girl is missing you... Love you...

Another Thursday!

Today was my 4^th working day without my car... And even today I dint get it back…. Of course! I am not liking it….!

It’s not very easy every time though…. But, I Love being positive… :)

Anyhow, I dunno how to react on it…. But recently I have noticed something very strange…. From past 7-8 times I am experiencing very bad Thursdays…

I seriously don’t know the reason behind it… All I know is… Thursdays are disastrous for me and I really pray to go invisible from this earth for this one day or God just make this day go disappear from the week… It’s so so bad…

Every Thursday morning I tell myself…. “come on… It’s a new day, It will be good” but the day ends on a very depressing note….

I still believe if it happens there must be some reason behind it….

I have also noticed, the problem starting with Thursday usually ends by the next Thursday because the next one comes with a new disaster… Eeeeew, I am hating it, simply.

I m not being superstitious though…. Even I ignored this thing for quite some time…. But when things went extremely idiotic… I was compelled to notice... Moreover, I have this bug of thinking over one thing for hours, days, months or even years (very rarely though)!

Even today was super bad… I so wish to hide underground or just disappear for this one day… I desperately ask God to put an end to the day at every single second of my Thursday….

Anyways, I’ll try to sleep now… My Espresso usually doesn’t work on my sleep… but since, it’s Thursday and I wanna end it early…. My coffee effect might work :P

God, I really wanna fight with you today… seriously… Let’s take it offline…. Good night!

I wish...

I wish I could fly...
I wish I could be invisible...
I wish I could turn back time..
I wish to do so much in life...


I wish.... I wish to be a person without any wishes..!

They say "Everything that is done in the World is done by Hope".. And with every hope comes a wish to turn that hope into a reality...

No matter how old I'll ever be... I know.. I will be a person who'll always believe in miracles and will always be in love with Disney movies.

Sometimes, I feel I wish so much in life... So many desires and hopes I have inside me... it makes me feel restless & fidgety.. I try to run from something unknown... 

Although, I know every human being wishes something or the other.. and if our one wish is fulfilled we are ready with more wishes.. 

I don't know how intensely people wish things but I know about myself... When I am into something.. I am into it... I wish it I want it and unless I get it I remain restless... I understand all wishes can't come true... God has his own limitations and targets depends upon the 'Karma' thing... But, at times I find it super difficult to come out of the situations..

May be its a side effect of being ambitious or crazy or black coffee or simply being me...!!

Today, I wish so many things... that I feel lost.. I ask myself what am I doing today.... Is this the right path to walk upon...appropriate direction to walk into... It makes feel uneasy... May be I am too impatient!

Well.. No matter whatever I wish... My first and last wish will always be 'to remain happy' and I can never be happy unless my people are happy.... 

I don't know... What all I am writing... :P

Anyhow, right now I wish to sleep.. but lets see till when my coffee can stop me from fulfilling my this wish...

Good night God... Love you... :-)

Life is Blissful.... :-)

It’s been a real long time.. since.. I have shared something here on my blog… In between… I have shifted my house… Missed few things from past… planned something for my future and started settling down in my new job :-)

I am happy because I am giving time to photography… even if it’s major part is only in my plans so far…. I try to click as much as possible and exploring my camera by trying different modes…

Photography will make me a philosopher…. A poet… An addict…. A lover and what not :P Whenever… I hold my camera I feel like I am worshipping…. It’s like an addiction…. more you start involving in it more you crave for better and different pictures…. I dunno how many of you can relate with it but it makes me feel blessed….

Whenever, I enter my home after clicking pictures first thing I do is to transfer those photos to my lappy and analyze what I have done…… what I could have done and what can be done next…. Pheww!! :-))

I big time miss driving my car…. My last job used to give me ample opportunities to drive almost whole day long…. Exploiting environment and burning my hard earned money on petrol… but here I drive home-office-home… So, I drive hardly for 1 hour a day…. But whenever I drive it cheers me up big time…. :-))) All I need is some exceptionally good music and of course... AC in summers and heater in winters and open windows in good weather… that’s not much I know…. :-))

Well… I know… It’s not a new thing but I am deeply in love with Delhi….. I am totally crazy about this city…. No matter whatever people may say…. It’s one brilliant place to live… I wanna spend all my life here…. Though… of course.... I love travelling and would love to travel the whole world.….

Next to next weekend... I am going to Amritsar from office… It’s a fun trip with office people…. Well… I am looking forward to it… And my camera is eagerly waiting to click the beautiful city of Golden temple….

I’ll be here again pretty soon… I’ll certainly share my Amritsar pics…. And experience… Although, I’ll try to be here before my Amritsar trip as well…. :-)

And God…. Thank you so much for everything… Please be there on my side and take care of my loved ones… I love you.... :-) :-)