Happy Birthday Pearl :-)

The most difficult thing is when you don’t have feelings to express!

I started Pearl to write whatever I feel, but now, I don’t feel anything... just nothing. I am blank mostly in my head. And heart, what’s heart? Oh yes, the blood pumping organ. Yeah, I have that :P

Weird I know but true.

I have changed or something died in me or may be everything is all right, I just over think.

Happy 6^th Birthday Pearl. I am sorry for being so irresponsible towards you.

But, I still love you. And love is not a feeling. Muuaah.

Happy Birthday Pearl!

Dear Pearl,

You are FIVE today.. ;-)

I thought of doing many things today... But, somehow, I am not in a right state of mind.

But.. I wanna confess... You have been a true Friend and a real source of joy for me since you were born...

You were there when I was in my worst phase... and I ignored you... You were there in my best phase when I was too happy to share anything with you... Without complain....

I wish you were human.. But... wait.. I am glad you are not human or else you would have left me for someone else in my bad time :-)

I love you for being with me... :-)

A VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LOVE! :-)

Cheers! 
Deepika

My 25th Birthday…

I had a very strong urge to write blog post on my birthday… But, at the end of the day I was too tired to type anything….

It was my 25^th birthday so I had certain plans from past few months which were all thrashed due to my work…. Anyways, I still managed to enjoy my day… thanks to my family and friends…. I feel lucky to have them... :-)

I can sense winters in Delhi… The weather is changing… So is my mood… It’s pleasant and better…. Every time its winters... I feel a different world around me... A better... more beautiful and serene... And as I always say… Winters make me fall in love with everything around me…

On my birthday, someone told me 25 is the age after which many things start changing…. I dunno what it means actually… As far as maturity level is concerned... I am least bothered… brains & heart I don’t posses…. So what is left? May be metabolism level… :P

Anyhow, sometimes I find it very difficult to understand myself.. I ask myself where am I going… I am 25 now, but.. I still ask myself, In which direction I am going… will I be able to reach my destination this way or not and if yes, then when?

I have dreams, interests, destination, resolutions and so many things to do… And, I hate it when someone asks me about marriage plans… Man! I don’t have time for all that but I guess it’s very difficult to make people understand that… So, I have stopped trying…  I just say- “No plans”

I have noticed, lately I am being more social…. May be I have realized the feeling of being away from my friends… I have realized it’s very difficult to find people who truly understand you and still be with you… I have realized people we randomly meet can be deceptive... And, I have realized life changes….

But, honestly, I have no regrets so far… Yes, I am still not very sure about the path I am moving on will take me how far in the journey towards my destination… But, life is all about moving… And realizing…. And rectifying… And the most importantly…. Having FUN!!!

So, cheers to the upcoming life….:)))

And God, thanks for being there for me….  I Love you for giving me the best of parents, brothers and friends…. I really wanna thank you with all my heart…. And yes, you know the things I wanna change in my life… Please help me with that… I promise I will try to be your good girl… Love you… muaah :-))

Happy Birthday Pearl :-)

On Your 3rd Birthday :-)

Wishing you a Very Very Happy Birthday Pearl.. Love You... :D

Belated Happy Birthday Pearl!! :D :D

Belated HAPPY BIRTHDAY :) :)
I hate my internet :( the moment is all spoiled.... I was so excited yesterday and wanted to wish you Yesterday only but my internet wasn't working it goes out of service hardly once or twice in an year why the hell it was the day I was waiting for so eagerly :( :(

Here is the birthday post I wanted to post yesterday evening...

***Today is your 1st birthday :D.... And here I am with a name for you... Pearl!
Pearl.... when it came in my mind I was not thinking about its meaning but once I started liking it I wanted to relate you with its meaning........

"Pearl is a hard substance found deep beneath the sea inside the shell covered with number of coated layers on it and due the presence of numerous layers it’s very hard in nature its appearance is soft and soothing.... "

Pearls are of different colors.... Earlier I thought of calling you "Pink Pearl" but then I felt it’s not going with my personality.... Way too girly... :P Second option was "Red Pearl" but it’s already given to Nokia's new phone series.... Well... I dropped the idea of using colors and I decided to leave it as Pearl only.....

In college all the time I was thinking about this moment when I’ll go home and wish you your first birthday...It’s such a great feeling... :D
I am feeling nostalgic :D.... Last year when I started writing I was stressed about my SIP and this year too scene is no different am worried about Job :))
But whatever I am happy about this one year.... We spent together :)) Writing was always my hobby but now when you are here in my life it’s a part of my life I know at times I feel lazy or moody or remain busy but the thought of your existence is always there in my mind... just like your loved ones whether you daily meet them or not but the feel that they exist is always there in the back of the mind.... I really wanted to do something special on your birthday so I tried poetry for you.... :) My first attempt exclusively for you :D here it goes......

You were with me when I was feeling low....
You gave me reasons to feel good and glow....

I shared with you the moments I smiled I cried
At times I was crazy but I never lied ;)

You are special and so is your day
Here I am wishing you a Very Happy Birthday :D

Love you Pearl…. muaah… :D :D

And thank you God for everything :)***

This was something I was waiting to post whole day long.... but anyways :) :)

Once again Belated Happy Birthday Pearl! :) :)

Note: Yesterday was my blog's first Birthday :)

My 22nd Birthday…… :) :)

Yesterday was my 22nd birthday…. And hence it added one more year of experience to my life…. I was just recalling the things changed in past one year……. My mindset…. My priorities…. And I learned few valuable things which will help me forever….

Well, before jumping to the philosophy part I would like to share how my day was… it was great… I went to my old campus i.e., North campus with my graduation friend…. We roamed… enjoyed our favorite street food… then walked on the streets of Kamla Nagar Market…. Recalled old days and missed our graduation time…

Then I did shopping for my mom…. What can be better than buying gifts for your loved ones….. And to make them smile…. :D After that we few friends assembled at Connaught Place and celebrated my birthday… And that wasn’t the end… I then went to my place and celebrated with my family… :D….

It was a great day…. Though few things went wrong… some misunderstandings…. Misconceptions…. Which still need to be cleared :(

I can really sense the changes as m growing… changes around me…. In me… My mindset my outlook…. Everything changing…. Usually I cry on my birthday may be coz I want it to be perfect and to celebrate it with everyone I love which is not possible always…. That’s something cannot be justified…. Yesterday after 10 years I realized I have no tears left nor I bother about silly things… Yes I do feel terribly bad about few things but crying part is missing… And here I recalled my professor’s words….

In graduation, my Physical Anthropology professor once said,

“Enjoy the feelings you have today, the smiles, the laughs, the tears, the pain, the hurt…. Coz as you’ll grow mature you’ll realize you are losing all the feelings within… you’ll cry no more…. Very few things will hurt you and you won’t shed tears like you do today”

And today I realized how true he was…. I do cry…. But less now…. I do bother about people but very few people…. I do laugh but rarely…. Things so changed….. And so I am….

I realized people ditch you when you need them the most… Here people are those people who call you friend and enjoy moments with you…. But when you want them to stand beside you…. You’ll find them enjoying with others…

And suddenly I realized my post is going more towards sad things….. NO NO NO….. That’s just not me :P Some bad experiences were ruling my mind and it came out :P

Anyways…. Even after few bad things I love my life and all the imperfections and as I am growing I am falling even deeply in love with it…. I love My family, Myself, my life and few good friends :)

Life is the most precious gift of God and even more precious are the people whom I love and who love me… without them life is nothing…. And of course I love you my blog :D…. this is my first birthday with you.... Muaah :)))

And this post is incomplete without remembering the one I usually complain to for all wrong things…. My dear God…. Thank you for everything….. Love you :)