Man's World!

Nowadays, I see everyone in my friend’s list is getting either committed or married or engaged…. Well, congrats to all of them… And may God bless them… But, at times I feel, are they in hurry or I am being indifferent towards this marriage thing… God Knows!

I seriously feel, I need to do well in my career…. Though I am not anti-marriage, I’ll certainly get settled... but, I am not in hurry…. I am career- focused right now…. And that bothers me more than anything else…

They say, priorities change once you are married…. Well, may be… I dunno…. M not married yet so no comments… It might be right…

Now days, I find my committed friends giving advices to me that I should also get married or engaged or something like that…. During this discussion,  I discovered a male mindset which I found very disappointing.

While discussing, a guy said that gals who travel in their jobs are not marriageable and 2 others supported him…. Which shocked me…. hurt me and badly disappointed me… for me I am a girl who loves to travel!

Now, my simple question is guys can grow in their lives, guys can work wherever they like, guys can travel wherever they want for work…. Then WHY CAN’T GIRLS?

If a guy expects his girl to support him for his career moves, his decisions, his opportunities then WHY CAN’T A GIRL EXPECT THE SAME?

In which world am I living…. Which century… which environment…. Where people have changed their dress up sense, lifestyles, culture but the thought process is still so small and biased….

In the end in any relationship, whether it’s parental, couple, friendship, brother-sister or any other relation, its all about faith and trust… If it’s not there then relationship is of no use…

I have seen guys and girls cheating on their better halves in normal routine lives with a very settled boring jobs… what I feel is people cheat when they are bored of their monotonous life while for some people it’s simply their character which can’t be changed…. What is there to do with travel!

One should feel content and satisfied in their lifestyle and it can only be there when they will do well in their personal and professional lives…. I agree, with time priorities do change but does that mean you stop growing in life?

Every individual needs their space to grow, whether it’s personal or professional, whether it’s a girl or a guy… 

We live in a world where we are raised in a family where guys and girls are treated as equal…. They are provided with equal facilities and equal respect…. they dream individually…. To grow in their lives… At least, I can say this for myself…. I am really happy and proud to say that my family gave me and my brothers  kinda upbringing where we understand guys and gals deserves equal space…

I dunno why, I am so disappointed with this kind of mentality of guys…. I feel sorry for them…. Honesty, If they are like this then where are we moving… what kinda upbringing their kids will ever get…. Where our country will move…. Gosh! Even though guys pretend to be so modern and open minded that they wanna walk with a lady wearing a pair of jeans but not an independent outlook towards their career!

Well, may be it’s only me who thinks this way. But yes, It’s indeed sad...!

Happy 4th Birthday! (BELATED) :-)

Sorry Pearl, for being late this year as well.... But Wishing you a very happy belated Birthday... Love you Laods.... 

P.S.- Pearl's Birthday was on 30th November, and this year it completed 4 years... :-)

Craving!

There are certain times when it’s difficult to figure out what we are feeling….  Something similar is happening with me…. I dunno what I am feeling… Whether I am sad or happy… 

I can sense some kinda craving…. Might be coffee… but I doubt its coffee… After having 4 strong espressos I rarely feel any more starvation for coffee… It might be the effect of access of caffeine may be…. 

Weird it is to understand… Its giving me a kinda head ache…. Some sort of discomfort in thinking process, I might be a craving for a break… Let’s see… Or stress of work giving me this restlessness…. I really dunno… I feel like destructing everything within and outside...

All I can sense is this is the feeling which a bird must be having while being locked in a cage… running around here and there… trying hard to get the freedom… I m not feeling comfortable… It’s a true restlessness feel… When I dunno from what I am trying to run and to reach where or to achieve what…

What I know is I am craving to get free from this feel…. I am not enjoying it…. Feel like running away to a far off place away from everything and never wanna come back… My soul wanna shout very badly… Something is not good…. Something is not right…

God, I need you… Please help me! :-(

F.R.I.E.N.D.S Forever!

Today while driving to my office, I realized that I never ever dedicated any post to the people who deserve a special space in my life… It’s not very tough to count them though… 

Broadly I can say, it’s my friends & my family members…. 

Of course, there are other influential people as well… like my First bosses (Internship and first job) who played very important role and still deserve a very good space in my mindset and life… Who helped me to grow like a lost kid in the fish-market…. My Marketing Professor Late Mr S.K. Jaimini who helped me in taking very crucial decisions at the point where I was super confused… 

But, I specifically wanna dedicate this post to my Friends…..

In the morning while driving, I was thinking… I must have done really good deeds in past life to have people like the ones I have… Honestly, I am one of the toughest and most complicated people…. Very short tempered, bad, rude, moody and crazy… It takes hell lot of patience and concern to deal with me…. And life is busy so no one has time to devote… So, the people who jhelofy me without complaining are the ones who have spoilt me to the core… At times, they treat me like a small spoilt kid who dunno anything about life and people… And makes me realize so many things I ignore to notice… And I don’t appreciate but I love them for this.. I don’t know nor I have words to thank them for this.. :D

O dear God, I feel very privileged and lucky to have such people… It’s very difficult to find people who understand you so well… *touchwood*

I am not a very expressive person, so, most of the times... I am unable to speak what I feel… The good I feel is mostly hidden… but the bad I feel is mostly on my face… but having such people who even understand that  the expressions are temporary and kiddish… and the feelings I posses are real and true is a pure blessing…. 

I wish to write so much… but, I am running short of words… 

I have seen and met people, who are there for you only when you are happy, but the moment you are in tough situation or in a mid of a mood swing they drop you like a hot potato… I am not criticizing such people but I must say they can’t be anybody’s friend. People who switch their friends as per their requirement at that point of time are simply don’t deserve friendship…. And they are like an eye-opener which makes you realize…. People can be illusive…

But, all is well when the end is well…. And there is no end to true friendships… Me and my friends do fight like kids… but that only adds on to our understanding towards each other…. And then of course, they know me so well… that we rarely need too many words to patch up…. :-)

Dear God, Thank you so much for these people in my life…. You know what you have given me… Of course, you never forget to add some negative elements in my life to give me a “Disney movie” feel… And expect your princess to manage it all… :P

But, trust me I will… Because, I know You are with me…. And My people are with me… And together we’ll win the game… Love You… Muaah.. :D  :-)

My 25th Birthday…

I had a very strong urge to write blog post on my birthday… But, at the end of the day I was too tired to type anything….

It was my 25^th birthday so I had certain plans from past few months which were all thrashed due to my work…. Anyways, I still managed to enjoy my day… thanks to my family and friends…. I feel lucky to have them... :-)

I can sense winters in Delhi… The weather is changing… So is my mood… It’s pleasant and better…. Every time its winters... I feel a different world around me... A better... more beautiful and serene... And as I always say… Winters make me fall in love with everything around me…

On my birthday, someone told me 25 is the age after which many things start changing…. I dunno what it means actually… As far as maturity level is concerned... I am least bothered… brains & heart I don’t posses…. So what is left? May be metabolism level… :P

Anyhow, sometimes I find it very difficult to understand myself.. I ask myself where am I going… I am 25 now, but.. I still ask myself, In which direction I am going… will I be able to reach my destination this way or not and if yes, then when?

I have dreams, interests, destination, resolutions and so many things to do… And, I hate it when someone asks me about marriage plans… Man! I don’t have time for all that but I guess it’s very difficult to make people understand that… So, I have stopped trying…  I just say- “No plans”

I have noticed, lately I am being more social…. May be I have realized the feeling of being away from my friends… I have realized it’s very difficult to find people who truly understand you and still be with you… I have realized people we randomly meet can be deceptive... And, I have realized life changes….

But, honestly, I have no regrets so far… Yes, I am still not very sure about the path I am moving on will take me how far in the journey towards my destination… But, life is all about moving… And realizing…. And rectifying… And the most importantly…. Having FUN!!!

So, cheers to the upcoming life….:)))

And God, thanks for being there for me….  I Love you for giving me the best of parents, brothers and friends…. I really wanna thank you with all my heart…. And yes, you know the things I wanna change in my life… Please help me with that… I promise I will try to be your good girl… Love you… muaah :-))

Another Thursday!

Today was my 4^th working day without my car... And even today I dint get it back…. Of course! I am not liking it….!

It’s not very easy every time though…. But, I Love being positive… :)

Anyhow, I dunno how to react on it…. But recently I have noticed something very strange…. From past 7-8 times I am experiencing very bad Thursdays…

I seriously don’t know the reason behind it… All I know is… Thursdays are disastrous for me and I really pray to go invisible from this earth for this one day or God just make this day go disappear from the week… It’s so so bad…

Every Thursday morning I tell myself…. “come on… It’s a new day, It will be good” but the day ends on a very depressing note….

I still believe if it happens there must be some reason behind it….

I have also noticed, the problem starting with Thursday usually ends by the next Thursday because the next one comes with a new disaster… Eeeeew, I am hating it, simply.

I m not being superstitious though…. Even I ignored this thing for quite some time…. But when things went extremely idiotic… I was compelled to notice... Moreover, I have this bug of thinking over one thing for hours, days, months or even years (very rarely though)!

Even today was super bad… I so wish to hide underground or just disappear for this one day… I desperately ask God to put an end to the day at every single second of my Thursday….

Anyways, I’ll try to sleep now… My Espresso usually doesn’t work on my sleep… but since, it’s Thursday and I wanna end it early…. My coffee effect might work :P

God, I really wanna fight with you today… seriously… Let’s take it offline…. Good night!

DAY 1: Work without my Car!

Before beginning with the post I would to like to mention that here the work is “SALES” so when I say work without a car… It means something genuinely uncomfortable!

I guess, I’ll start with how I m struck in this situation… well…. It all happened on a very pleasant day… the day I love the most ‘FRIDAY’…  A Friday afternoon.

As usual, I was driving my car… going for a meeting…. happily singing a song…. On a crowd less road… where I met an accident... It wasn’t just any simple hit it was kinda major…. A bikewala hit my car badly without seeing the indicator due to which he got injured and I ended up losing one door of my car and the other door was damaged…

Anyways, my primary concern was that guy who was bleeding…  As that was not the point to argue on whose fault it was… I took him to the hospital and dropped him back…. After that my concern was my car… It was a major loss so I decided to call up insurance guy to guide me how to go about it… He told me a long process which I decided to follow…

My Saturday went in searching for a workshop where I can give my car and get it repaired at earliest… as well as in fewer outflows of cash…. Finally, my search ended on a workshop in Vasant Kunj where I decided to give my car and the workshop guy ensured me its return in 4 days i.e., by Thursday most probably…

Phewww! Long story it was… Anyways, now I was bothered about my work… Being in sales it’s very difficult to go without a car… Sunday I was mostly sleeping and doing tp… By the end of the day I convinced myself that “It’s gonna be an adventure to be without a car… I’ll explore the city in public transport once again after 2 years… yayy!” :P

Though from inside I was saying “it won’t be that bad... after all people do live without a car”….

Ah… Started Monday… I luckily got lift till office with a colleague of mine who stays in South Delhi… Then comes the meetings part…. I was lucky as I had just one meeting today… that too I managed in metro…

After years, I travelled in Metro…. It was not really a bad experience… Honestly speaking… sometimes it’s required to come out of your comfort zone and work like mostly people do… Well, yes, I lack patience and I hate public transport but it’s all because I always had a choice to avoid it… today, I had no choice so I used it… It wasn’t actually my wish though… :P

I spent around 4 hrs in just one meeting due to this public transport thing… I am sure with car it’s just a matter of 2.5 hrs at max… Life can’t be same every time…

But… God, seriously yaa… Thank You so much for being there for me… Good and bad days do come but it’s all required at times… It only makes us versatile and strong…. And I am happy, Really… So don’t worry.. ;-)

Just take care of my people…. Love you… Muaah! :-))

The 'Friday' Feeling! \m/

Yesterday was Friday and while driving back home after a nice evening I was thinking on 'Fridays are truly awesome'... And its not just yesterday, I think of it on every Friday....

Though.. everyday is new... everyday is different with somewhat different feel...

Lets start with Mondays..
Mondays are very lethargic.. rarely charged up.. Unless I am looking forward to something meaningful! Although Mondays are start of a new week but as they say mornings are laziest part of the day... Mondays are the laziest day of the week..

Tuesday comes with a hope that thank God... Only 3 more days to go for Friday.. Lets work hard ;-)

Wednesday says yayy! Friday is near.... Lets finish up the tasks beforehand to avoid any last minute Friday hassles :D

Thursdays are usually busy... to wind up stuff and fix up few meetings for Friday.. So that I can enjoy my weekend without a guilt of not performing well..

And FINALLY, the Friday! ohh... Its a brilliant incomparable feel... very hard to describe...

Fridays are the best even if I remain busy in my office or do not party at all.. I still love Fridays... I love that different feel... "The Friday feel'... :D

Fridays are the even better when I am eagerly waiting for some movie to release... Last one I remember was 'Rockstar release' Friday.. I was crazily waiting for that one..

My weekends are usually working, so, anyhow Saturday- Sundays are special but I am rarely very sure about what I am gonna do on my weekend... Honestly, I love sleeping, cooking or just relaxing by doing nothing on weekends (provided they are off)...

Weekends are uncertain but Fridays are certainly rocking... :-)

Well, its almost 6 days to go for another Friday... But I guess the wait will start from Monday.. Till then I'll enjoy my weekend... Cheers!!

Happy Weekend dear God ;-)

I wish...

I wish I could fly...
I wish I could be invisible...
I wish I could turn back time..
I wish to do so much in life...


I wish.... I wish to be a person without any wishes..!

They say "Everything that is done in the World is done by Hope".. And with every hope comes a wish to turn that hope into a reality...

No matter how old I'll ever be... I know.. I will be a person who'll always believe in miracles and will always be in love with Disney movies.

Sometimes, I feel I wish so much in life... So many desires and hopes I have inside me... it makes me feel restless & fidgety.. I try to run from something unknown... 

Although, I know every human being wishes something or the other.. and if our one wish is fulfilled we are ready with more wishes.. 

I don't know how intensely people wish things but I know about myself... When I am into something.. I am into it... I wish it I want it and unless I get it I remain restless... I understand all wishes can't come true... God has his own limitations and targets depends upon the 'Karma' thing... But, at times I find it super difficult to come out of the situations..

May be its a side effect of being ambitious or crazy or black coffee or simply being me...!!

Today, I wish so many things... that I feel lost.. I ask myself what am I doing today.... Is this the right path to walk upon...appropriate direction to walk into... It makes feel uneasy... May be I am too impatient!

Well.. No matter whatever I wish... My first and last wish will always be 'to remain happy' and I can never be happy unless my people are happy.... 

I don't know... What all I am writing... :P

Anyhow, right now I wish to sleep.. but lets see till when my coffee can stop me from fulfilling my this wish...

Good night God... Love you... :-)