Note- This is not my usual cheer up post... So read at
your own risk! :-P
From past many days, I was thinking over everything happened in
my life in last few years... Though I have things in my memory in bits and
pieces... And I don't remember anything precisely but I do remember the time
when I started writing Pearl...
I started blog with things which used to make me feel happy or
positive... In fact, I truly believe that it was a point in time where everything
going on in my life was just superb... Those were my MBA days... I had super
awesome friends... Good fitness, cool grades and the best of life... :-)
Life moved on and things kept on changing... I was always so
happy about everything around me... Be it my first job or my friends or my
body... My attitude towards life... Everything was always a fairy tale... And I
was the Princess...
I messed up in my jobs by choosing wrong ones but still my life
was great as I had my friends & family to support me in my decisions... And
my decisions were mainly ruled by heart... Many times I had done things without
practically evaluating the pros & cons of it... And never regretted.... That’s
the power of your people and their faith on you.
Moving on in life... I faced some real bad situations and met
some disgusting people. Of course, in every fairy tale there is a villain to
spoil everything... Things changed drastically and horribly... I lived a nightmare in real... All the fairy-tale
theory came to an end... It took me everything to gather myself back... I so
wished to disappear from this earth but as God had others plans and I stayed
here... :P But, it all changed something in me...
And as they say “What doesn't kill you, makes you Stronger”
:P
I don't wanna recall that depression I went through for more
than an year... but, all I know today is I am not the girl who started writing
this blog... Those incidents altered me completely.
After all the turmoil... I landed up in a bank as a
salesperson... It truly helped me in realising that “working in a bank is not the worst thing that can happen to you..., it
can be good too”
I had this phobia in mind since college days that banks
are real bad, but trust me... I had good time there and I met some great
people.... which helped me in overcoming the depression I was facing... I moved
on... I never liked my bank job... but, even today I love the people I met... And
it's always about people, unless you are travelling! :P
Finally, the present... I love the organisation I work for
but I terribly miss my friends...
I realised why people in college used to say life is not a bed
of roses, grow up and be practical! And how I used to tell them it’s always
beautiful no matter what... Now, I know they were not wrong :))
They say "har jagah sab kuch nahi milta" which I never
agreed in life... I always believed it’s in our mind... It’s all here if we are
content... But, first time I realised... No matter what you have and what you
do... If you don't have your people with you... It’s all waste...
I never felt this way in my life... Except... once in school
when I was shifted to a new section with new kids and I was lost for many
days... This is a similar feeling... I somehow feel everything is missing... I
have learnt a lot though... It’s a churning experience for me and it was
important...
Today, I am less bothered about people... but, I have realised the
value of my people more than ever and I miss them.
As of now... I m in search of the girl I used to be... I
know it’s in me... Somewhere scared... She used to inspire
people to follow their heart and live life king size... Today, I am looking for
that zeal again...
I need a miracle... I know they happen... God send me your
angel... your best angel... I know I am your favorite... :-) Love you.. Please
bless my people... Muaah :-*
