Wednesday, August 5, 2009

No Sorrow to Die...

This story is written and mailed by my dear friend Natesha whom I met during my official trip to Amritsar…..
I wish to express my word of thanks to her for writing such a beautiful piece of writing for me…. Thank you dear… :)


Here goes her work---

“It was definitely Love at first sight for me. Her name was Deepika. And she had come on an official visit to the office where I worked. Even though my meeting with her was preplanned, I had erroneously been informed that I would be meeting some gentle man. So naturally, meeting this gorgeous young woman took me by surprise. But that was not all. There was something about her that attracted me the instant I saw her. She was so beautiful. Those deep set brown eyes & that pearly smile could have mesmerized anyone. But there was something else too, some force unexplainable, that pulled me towards her.

"Hi mam! can you tell me about this?"

She was smiling sweetly as she held a piece of paper for me to see. It was the address of the office where she was scheduled to have a meeting.

"Ya sure", I smiled back, "I will take you there"

Accompanying her to the meeting was an official duty, but I would have gladly done it even otherwise. Since the meeting was quite some time later, we started chatting casually. I was falling in love with her and would have done anything to spend a few precious moments with her.
Of course, she would never know it. It was not that she did not like my presence, I could sense that she liked being with me. But she would never understand the way I was feeling for her, never know what was going on in my mind. I would not blame her though. She was straight & engaged to the man she was hopelessly in love with. I told her that I was also engaged to be married in a couple of months' time.

"Oh! Congrats!" She again flashed that sparkling smile of hers.

"Thanks", I said feebly.

My engagement had not been with my whole hearted consent. I had been coerced into it. From the day I told my parents that I was lesbian, all hell broke loose in my house. Instead of trying to understand me, they simply accused me of being abnormal & perverted. They blackmailed, brainwashed & begged to be a "normal girl”. And for this, it was important that I married a man like all "healthy minded" women do. Accepting my sexuality & coming out of the closet itself had been an enormous challenge, and now I just could not bear the emotional torture my parents were piling up on me. So I had agreed to the proposal they had been insisting upon even though I had never met that man. But I knew instinctively that this marriage would never take place.

Tringg... tringg.... tringgg.....

It was Deepika's cell phone ringing.

"Its boss", she said, making a mock serious expression. She moved away from her chair to take the call. Her boss had called to inform her that the meeting had been canceled.

"Hey, let’s go for a walk then", I suggested. My own boss was absent from office that day, & I decided to make good use of this opportunity.

As Deepika & I set off together on a short walk, she told me about her future plans & ambitions. The more the time I spent with her, the more deeply I was falling for her. I just could not take my gaze off her angelic face. Suddenly she looked at me in the eye & asked about my future plans.

I lowered my gaze."Whatever my parents decide"

She started laughing on hearing my reply. "Ha ha ah you are such a typical Indian girl!”

I simply gave her a pathetic look. There was not anything else that I could do.
How could I ever tell her about my future plans? How could I tell this girl who was so much in love with her life that I no longer loved mine? How could I tell this angel who made me feel so alive that I planned to commit suicide?
She sensed my discomfort.

"Hey, I did not mean to hurt you. I just want to tell you that you should do only what you really feel like doing. You should not give in to others' pressures."

"Hmm.. ya.."

By now we had almost reached back to my office. It was 7 O'Clock in the evening & the sky was churning out different hues of orange, pink & dark blue. I looked as she marveled at nature's beauty.

"What a beautiful evening! I am so happy to have spent it with you, I just like you so much!"

She hugged me tightly for a few seconds. When she had freed me from her arms, I looked deep into her sincere dark eyes, & felt engulfed by love. The kind of love that reaches deep into your soul, deep into your very being. The kind of love that liberates you from all worldly attachments, the kind of love that takes you to a higher realm.

"I love you", she whispered into my ear, holding my hand.

"Me too", I smiled back.

Meeting Deepika had made me realize the power of true love, and once you are touched by it, there is no looking back.
Even though she had made me see the beauty of life, still I would go along with the things I had already planned.
I would go home & end this hopeless life of mine. I knew I would have to do this, there was no other way out. But now, I would have no sorrow to die as I had experienced true love in this life time.”

“I simply loved your work dear…. You are such a sweetheart.. Your writing skills are really very well… Wishing you all the luck, success and happiness for future…. Take Care…. :D :D”
Loads of Love…
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