I am surely in LOVE!!

I lived one of my worst nightmare yesterday….!! I was in a state of shock by the time I fell asleep.

I still feel terrible thinking about the moment…. Day started with a bad note when I was searching for the keys of my car and got too late for a meeting…. Day proceeded with rushing for the other meetings….

After doing 2 meetings in 2 hours I had to reach for the 3rd one which absolutely out of the way…. I rushed and almost managed to reach the place 5 minutes before time… Since, it was not my meeting and I was almost on time I parked my car in “No Parking” area and rushed for the meeting.

I quickly finished the meeting in 15 minutes and when came back.. my car was not there…. For a second, I felt I have lost it forever… It was a terrible feeling… I asked everybody standing around and got to know that it was towed away….

I took an auto and reached the place… It felt like I have lost something I am totally in love with… My car was standing outside the police station and three old men were sitting there…. They were so called policemen… I went there and shouted at them…. I tried to be normal but I was not able to…. How the hell they touched my CAR without my consent…. I felt like slapping them then and there…. But then I controlled I was dying to drive my car again… I just paid the money and took my car….

For some time... I stopped my car in between and felt like crying but then I had a very bad headache and I decided to run away to some place far away and wanted to spend some time in isolation…. So, I went to Noida and tried to sleep.. After trying hard for two hours I finally fell asleep and ended my bad day….

Yesterday was a day I was actually waiting for… Something good was planned for the evening… but then I cancelled everything…. I needed that isolation therapy…. I know I am mean at times…. But, I was in a bad form….

I am surely in love with my car…. And it was scary like hell to even imagine yesterday’s moment….. I would rather…. Anyways…. Chuck it…

My heart stopped beating for few seconds…. And I reacted badly… I know…. But it was out of my control…….

God!! Hope you are listening to me!!… Don’t give me such heart attack again…. Pheww!!... Love you…. :) :)

I guess... I am in Love!

Have you ever seen a dream in which you miserably want something and you are moving away from it… or a dream in which a person you love going away from you…?? I saw a dream last night in which I saw a similar thing and in the morning I was in dilemma…. Now, without any further description I would like to discuss so many things happened in past few days…. ;-)

My career related dilemmas, my birthday, my close friend’s personal issues, my cousin’s & friend’s wedding’s preparation, parties…. And lot more…

In between, I have also organized and attended a photography event which was an amazing experience… :-) :-)

Life randomly changed quite a bit in past sometime…. Some realizations… learnings…. And so many things… I guess I am running short of words….

Unexpected as always….. Few things never planned happened.. Few faces never imagined seen… few moments never thought cherished….

I never thought I’ll start liking my job… :P…. No.. seriously… I guess I have started liking my job… I simply thought of leaving it at one point of time & even resigned… Of course attachment is something always happens whether you want it or not… I was so attached to my office even after my internship where I spent just 3 months & here it’s now more than 8 months…… Or may be it’s just the magic of winters…. I fall in love with everything around when its winters :D… :D

I am scared…. Because I know I can’t love this work & honestly at times I hate it with the same intensity.… this is not my future & destiny….. I have my future plans & they are different…. But somehow I know till the time I am here… I'll do it with all my interest & love…. ;-)

Now, not going into the details of my love for my job & career… There is one more thing I wanted to share but then I guess it’s too early to disclose anything….. Anyhow, that’s also something good *wink wink*

One more interesting thing happened recently… I got a chance to go inside the parliament house & meet some big people…. I must say… It was an amazing experience… I loved the place…. So calm & serene… Just mind blowing…. & people there were damn good…. Too welcoming…. Too good… I spend around 6 hours there in 2 days…. And I met around 8 people individually and spent quality time with each of them… It was an experience that influenced me….. And I know it’ll certainly help me… You know I never share anything just like that…. ;-)

I am now not in a mood to arrange the words I just jotted down… I guess it was more like writing a diary… I guess I am falling in love with everything around me…. I guess I am in love…. In love with me…. My life… Winters…! I am blushing ;-) :-))

Love you God…. Thanks for everything…. Muaah.. :D

Thinking hard about LIFE!

I am sharing a poem I recieved in an e-mail.. I am posting it here because its something I can relate with.... Yes, Life is being different now..... And it somehow gives an idea of why its being different... Although there are other factors as well.... But, this one touched me... I loved this piece of writing and would love to share....

"Thinking hard about life How it changed from a maverick college life to strict professional life…...
How tiny pocket money changed to huge monthly paychecks but then why it gives less happiness….
How a few local denim jeans changed to new branded wardrobe but then why there are less accasions to use them
How a single plate of samosa changed to a full Pizza or burger But then why there is less hunger…..
Here I am sitting in my office at night…
Thinking hard about life How it changed…..


How a bike always in reserve changed to a car always on but then why there are less places to go on……
How a small coffee shop changed to cafe coffee day but then why it feels like shop is far away…..
How a limited prepaid card changed to postpaid package but then why there are less calls & more messages……
Here I am sitting in my office at night…
Thinking hard about life How it changed…..

How a general class journey changed to Flight journey But then why there are less vacations for enjoyment….
How an old assembled desktop changed to new branded laptop but then why there is less time to put it on……….
And last But the Most Important…..
How a small bunch of friends changed to colleageus But then why we always feel lonely & miss those college friends.….
Here I am sitting in my office at night…
Thinking hard about life How it changed…..
How it changed……."

Is it known as being successful??

Thanks Vinee for sending me this beautiful poem..