'No Money' day-out!

After a long long time I am coming back on my blog with a realization happened JLT… :-)

Though I miss writing terribly… I rarely write it down now a days… I think I should restart writing my filmy life & its happenings  :P

Yesterday was just another day…. I got up… cooked food (which wasn’t very usual though)…. Got ready for office… And left for my meeting directly…while driving I saw a shop where they sell one of the finest cakes in town… It tempted me and I decided to buy one for myself…. I was driving and talking on fone… I turned my car towards the shop and parked… Moment I was about to get down of my car I realized I left my wallet home… LOL

It wasn't a ‘LOL’ moment though…. I was kinda shocked…. I was almost 50 kms away from home on an isolated planet… crossed Toll roads… Without any further option I started my car and looked around how much money I had in form of coins and change… I counted, it was 70 Rupees…

Calculation started in my mind… 20 for parking, 25 for toll and rest miscellaneous…. Have you ever realized we feel like eating something special on the day when we can’t actually buy it…. :P

Talking to myself, I reached for my meeting… The office was in a mall... I parked my car…. And finished my meeting…. Then I saw McDs… I never crave for their food on normal days…. But yesterday it was a craving… I recounted my money and realized I had 30 bucks extra… I decided to buy a burger… :P

Their burger never tasted so good ever in my life… I relished it.. And left for my other meeting which was in the other corner of Delhi…. Luckily my home was on the way… I picked up my wallet and continued my day…. But, in that short time I actually relived my school days… where money used to be so limited and we used to save 5 Rs as well…. Today, if I look at myself…. Or even people around me…. No one bothers about it…. We earn & throw…

Life changed so much…. Still some change saved my ‘HALF DAY’ :P

God, Love you… Give me strength and be with me.. Muaah.. :-)

Deception!

"One of the worst feelings in the world is the feeling of being cheated by someone you trusted.."

As we grow up we meet different kinda people... We see different faces... We learn from them... 
Some people actually come close to us and on the other hand some just pretend to be so...

The worst feeling ever is to realize that someone you considered very close to you deceived you very badly...

I m going through a similar feeling right now...

A feeling where I realized I was being a fool from past few months... I really dunno what pleasure people get in doing such things... Winning and breaking faith like a toy of glass...

In past also such things happened though they were not this bad but then I coped up with them may be because that was the time when I was close to my friends and we used to meet on daily basis... And they helped me to come out of it... 

But, someone truly said- "Sometimes the wrong persons teach us the right lessons in life"

Today as well, I have certain very good friends but they are not around me... So today when I find myself struck in this situation I truly understand how difficult and deadly life can ever be...

Trust me God, I m seriously very upset with you on this and I need time to come out of it... But, then, I am thankful to you for teaching me this...! Your li'l favorite kid Loves you :)) Muaah

Recover. Gain Strength. Rejuvenate. BOUNCE BACK!

I am trying to understand what is going on in my mind from past few weeks…. I am in a state of a strange dilemma… kinda suffering… trying super hard to come out of it!

I am being anti-social, destructive, restless, careless, unreasonable, emotionally unavailable, ignorant, cruel, rude and crazy!

It’s a part of me and I don’t mind being so…. But then… the changes in me are scaring me… It’s affecting my work out routine… my professional performance… personal life… and every damn thing!

Whenever, I find myself moving towards darkness and negativity I recall Spiderman III… Where I find negative powers all over me… Ruling my Heart & Mind!

As they say… Life is all about changes and phases…. This is also a phase.. The world is my playground… I am a player who is not in the best form at present but yes, I’ll certainly be fine….

Many good things did happen in last few days… I got my new car… And I am loving it… Though I still love my old one the most…. May be I am fond of the ‘first love thing’…. First job… first car… first home…. First…. Are always very close to my heart and soul…

I guess all I need is… a rejuvenating weekend outing... starting with a long long drive… without phone and net… all alone…. Isolation therapy is good at times…. I need to be alone…. Just me... my coffee… my camera… my running…. Myself!

I need to be with me… I feel I am running from myself… I don’t give a damn to people who don’t matter to me… but I am really concerned about certain people…. I think that’s what is bothering me like hell..

I wanna indulge in all good things where I can recharge myself back.... bring me back on track… I wanna listen to myself… Wanna spend time with my inner self… Together we’ll have good time… long walks, music, coffee, dark chocolates, photography… blogging, running.. And much more….

Dear God, please give me strength and guide me in the right direction…. I need you to be with me…. Your girl is missing you... Love you...